TIPS: HOW TO SURVIVE IN UNIVERSITIES/ COLLEGE LIFE ( especially ITB )

Assalamulaikum

I think aku dah bosan study. Aku tak sabar nak grad & pegang duit sendiri. Some said dunia study paling senang. Maybe. Tapi aku dah muak dah la. Serious. Aku dah tak ikhlas dah belajar semua ni. Dah la salah masuk course, racism &  double standard everywhere, aku tak nape aku belajar certain subjects like takde function and etc. Hope aku tak rendahkan semangat any students who are reading this. Go do what u love. Dont let cynical & sadist me ruin your enthusiasm. 

Now we get straight to the point. First thing first before u enter university/ college life, keep this in mind : LIFE WILL BE DIFFERENT & U'LL CHANGE. Mostly changed for good. It wont be easy, trust me. It takes every ounce of your energy, your motivation & your sweats and tears lol. ( Ke aku je yang rsa camni? Haha).

Tips2 nya adalah :-

1) Concentrate dalam kelas

 Kau maybe tak paham dalam kelas lepas tu kau pikir, "rilex la, aku pahamkan kat rumah ". NO. Sebab kau masuk je kelas lain, lecturers bagi assignments. Pastu kau masuk lab, tambah report, tambah journal. Ko masuk extra class, tambah lagi presentation. Literally , kau memang takde masa pastu kau dok tangguh n tangguh n tangguh nak pahamkan apa yang kau tak paham, sampai la exam, Time tu takde masa, baru kau sedar betapa penting nya BAGI PAHAMKAN STRAIGHT DALAM KELAS. Kalau kau x paham 100%, at least get the idea. Mcm aku serious x paham all physics stuffs dalam subject Instrument, tapi at least aku cuba paham yang benda ni nak detect impurities dalam ubat by using UV/Vis wave. 

2) Make your own notes

Yes kau ada buku teks, ada internet. Tapi yang keluar dalam exam is what your lecturers taught in class. ( Even some lecturers  diaorang memang tanya out of topic, but mostly hint dia dalam kelas ). Apa dia ajar, even takde dalam slides notes  or books, kau wajib catat even small details. Aku banyak kali survive exam sebab kebetulan aku ada catat benda2 kecik dalam kelas. Aku tak tipu, one day masa lecturer nampak ktorang dah bosan, pastu dia cakap "what is the first taste sense that will go away if u have flu? U wont taste any sweet taste". Aku tulis benda tu then before exam aku sekali imbas je ternampak notes aku. Bammm keluar soalan.  Students laen keluar dewan tanya "weyh ada ke dia ajar ??". Yes , ada, Kau memang kena tumpu . Lecturers kalau dah geram, memang diaorang test students macam ni.

3) Baik dengan seniors

Even kau menyampah mana pun dengan senior korang, diaorang ada satu ego korang kena feed. Diorang suka kalau juniors bertanya soalan. And actually murah hati kalau korang mintak NOTES, SLIDES, PAST YEAR QUESTIONS & QUIZZES. Korang mintak je tips all before pergi exam sebab prediction diorang mostly 60% akan keluar dalam exam. Jangan gaduh dengan senior, sebab let say kau dah buat hal kat sorang, kau rasa kawan2 dia yang laen nak tolong kau ke ? Nama kau dah buruk kat situ. Seriously, kalau kau baik dengan senior, kadar survival rate kau kat universiti naik 40%. 

4) Baik dengan lecturers

Ada beza buat baik and kaki kipas. Kaki kipas is student tu tak berusaha like others, tapi markah dia selalu tinggi coz selalu bodek lecturers. You guys maybe pikir , "takkan lecturers takde integrity bias sebab students baik dengan diorang ??". 

You guys lupa satu benda, LECTURERS ARE HUMAN. Diaorang maybe ingat budak2 kaki bodek ni budak baik, so lepas mengajar budak2 keras kepala & kaki tidur macam you guys, dioarang happy tau ada students yang at least tumpu dalam kelas ( that's what they taught ). 

Buat baik is, JANGAN MELAWAN. Even korang rasa lecturers tu tak adil, discriminate, taknak negotiate tarikh exam, jangan sekali-kali raise your voice and lawan. Keep this in mind, YOUR FUTURE IS IN THEIR HANDS. Imagine korang dah berkelakuan kurang hajar, and kebetulan in exam, korang tinggal satu je markah nak lulus. Dia bole je luluskan, tapi kau dah buat taik, so dia failkan kau. True story.

Buat baik means, jangan ponteng melebihi kuota, lol. Bila lecturers tau korang kaki ponteng, bila korang tak score dalam exam & u guys mintak second chance by doing assignments, jawapan tipikal diorang would be, "U could not answer during exam because u WERE NOT in the class". Jangan bagi impression kaki ponteng, ever.

Buat baik juga bermaksud, hantar assingments on time dan please  kurangkan plagiarism ( try to maintain the originality of your assignments at 60% at least ).

5) Buat baik dengan assistants.

Most lecturers ada assistants dioarang sendiri, especially lab assistants. You guys jangan pandang rendah kat akademik diorang, because most assistants are Master student, or in training to be lecturer. 

I feel bad to say this, but memang extra point if u guys cantik/ lawa or handsome. Again, assistants are human too. Dalam kelas aku ada this guys always survive because almost all assistants tangkap cintan dengan dia. Aku tak cakap guna lah kecantikan korang if nak survive, this is soooo wrong. Tapi, kalau korang dah notice some special attention to u from that particular assistant, use it. Korang boleh bertanya lebih and they might give u extra answer & tips. True story. Im sorry, tapi dunia ni memang agak lebih mudah bagi orang cantik. ( my opinion). I once read, "Being ugly in this world seems like playing a game in a hard mode". 

Tapi tak semua assistants gatal. Ada assistants yang betul2 nak guide & tolong korang. If korang jadi kawan dia, and tunjuk kan semangat nak study, memang diorang TOLONG SANGAT2. Diorang akan bagi markah tinggi dalam tests, dalam reports, dalam exam, and before exams, they might give some good tips to you guys.

So again, be good to the lecturer's assistants. 

6) Study weeks

If you guys ada past year questions from seniors or library, first thing first DO/ PRACTICE THE PAST YEAR QUESTIONS. Even korang belum habis ulangkaji all notes, seriously practice dulu past years, and cari jawapan for the questions. 70% chance soalan yang sama akan keluar lagi dalam exam in different ways. Say, in 2011 punya soalan tanya pasal method of detecting alkaloids in diagram type of question, possibly in your exam akan keluar method of detecting alkaloid in essays. 

Let say if tak sama pun, the pattern will be the same. Tak sayang ke if korang tak practice past year questions, then tiba2 keluar soalan sebijik. Maybe if korang practice, you guys can get even Á in that particular subject. Or it can give u the idea of the lecturer's pattern about the exam. I have this lecturer, in the objective/ multiple choice questions, dia suka letak dekat 'D; All the above is true'. And selalu nya 'D' is the right answer. True story, again.

Lepas practice past year, baca balik all old tests and quizzes. 10% chance the questions will be asked in exam are the same questions from the test/ quiz.

Then baru korang bole baca notes/ slides/  reports/ text books or internet. Try habiskan all before exams, and again, please ask your seniors for some tips. Trust me.

7) Sleep

Don't worry pasal mata panda or tak cukup tidur, sampai korang penat la yakin kan diri, "owh sehari kena tidur 8 jam". Bulls**t. Tidur terletak dekat no 2 terakhir in what-to-do list korang. Korban tidur itu normal. Tough sikit. ( Terakhir is tengok wayang , hehe ).

8) Duit

Korang kena pandai manage duit in college life. Mostly duit akan terbang dekat assignments, reports, ink printer ( if u have printer), kertas A4, alat tulis, alat lab2 ( e.g: gloves, masks, spatula), final year projects and MAKAN. Makan tu aku tekan kan sikit, cause please2 jangan skip makan. Kalau takde duit sangat pun, at least makan telur goreng dengan nasi. Bila all this hectic datang, korang sangat memerlukan energy. Being tired, lethargy or sick are the things u mostly want to avoid.

9) Drama

Drama itu sentiasa ada, sebab manusia lain2 perangai. Yang ni aku x bole bagi tips sangat, sebab aku try elak camne pun, aku selalu dalam drama. Aku pun tak paham. Just because aku tukar status in Whatsapp pun jadi isu, apatah lagi isu lain. Aku moody time PMS, orang bole benci aku cakap aku tak professional. Manusia susah nak dipuaskan, so all i can say is, PILIH KAWAN yang kau betul2 matching and stick with her/ him. Yang lain kau xpayah carik gaduh, just act professional dan kawan macam biasa, because it'll bring much trouble kalau korang terpaksa buat assignment dalam satu kumpulan, apatah lagi lab partner.  

Ada la satu time ni, minah dua ni gaduh besar. So sorang ni sampai la hati hantar assignment, tak letak nama dia lalu submit, thus jadi isu dekat assistants, so dia dicop pembawa masalah. So please, try to avoid all this drama. 

Kalau korang dah terlibat, please act all classy about this. Jangan jadi budak2 pergi post status kt FB, pergi marah2, pergi report kat lecturers. Dah masuk university ni, please act like a grown up. Bila dah terlibat, bawak2 bersabar, kalau x tahan sangat, luahkan kan la bestfriend korang or your mom. And if u decide to counter attack, do it in a proper way. Example, if budak tu dah pergi report kat lecturer, korang jumpa lecturer tu balik with enough evidence. Balas balik with good marks, good name and good behaviors. Nothing is better when you smile where everyone expect you not to. 

Nothing good ever comes if u throw tantrum in the class, fb or instagram. Again, YOU ARE A SCHOLAR, ACT LIKE ONE.

10) Have time for yourself

Yes CGPA itu penting. Tapi CGPA bukan segalanya, Tak berbaloi sebab exam korang tiba2 dapat sakit buah pinggang ke, sakit denggi sampai tak pergi hospital, sampai pengsan sebab terlalu penat, kena masuk IV la apa la. Tak tak. 

Ingat dulu purpose korang masuk universiti ni. Nak dapat kerja elok, nak balas budi mak abah, or maybe for some nerds out there, because u guys memang betul2 minat nak belajar. Kesihatan adalah salah satu kurniaan yang paling berharga. Sekali Allah tarik nikmat tu, sebanyak mana pun duit tak kan mampu bagi balik tubuh badan yang dulu. Penat la korang makan collagen, stem cell, virgin olive oil, supplements, tetap takkan sama macam dulu.

Lepas dah habis all kerja, spend some times on fun activities, examples : baca pinterest, 9gag, facebook or some novels for few hours before go to sleep, pergi jogging waktu petang, tengok movies dekat laptop ( time ni korang tertengok 18sx movie secara tak sengaja, because internet tak censored. Brace yourself), pergi shopping or even masak. Pergi makan tempat fancy, or watch some football match, pergi dinner kat hotel or even socialize with other students from other universities. Pergi usrah, baca yassin or dengar kuliah Nouman Ali Khan. 

Masuk la kelab2 if berminat, masuk pertandingan or sukan tahunan. 

You'll make great memories, new friends and even may develop new skills or find new talents within yourself . 

11) Have faith

Dulu aku selalu ingat, if kita work hard enough, kita akan berjaya. Tak, i was wrong. Kejayaan takes sooo much more than hard work. Aku pernah study giler2 , tapi aku kena repeat jugak paper tu. Banyak kali. Aku tak paham kenapa bila aku dah study pun, still aku tak score. sangat. Kat mana silap dia, Allah je yang tahu. Ada sekali tu malam before exam with 5 more topics to be covered, aku dapat soalan exam from that good looking guy, who asked the questions from some girls who had the exam already. Not fair right ? World is not fair, the one im living in. Bagi aku yang dah tercemar dengan persepsi negative due to all this unfairness, the no 1 tip is U MUST KNOW HOW TO SURVIVE. 

Honestly, aku dah buat benda yang sama, as i figured this is one of the way to get what i want. Ada la seorang assistant ni, yang garang memanjang & bias terhadap perempuan cantik. Aku dah try mintak kunci locker untuk final year project for 1 month, and asyik direject. Then the next day, one of my classmate beritahu that particular assistant layan je apa dia nak, for an obvious reason, she is pretty. One day, i did my make up extra, I did my tudung nicely, and wore pretty cloth. I speak nicely to him, bammm, i got the key right away.

Believe me, kau ingat aku tak tau ke berdosa tunjuk kecantikan kat orang, untuk dapat benda yang kita nak ? 

This is the the world im living right now. I know all this is some kind of tests to me. I failed one test, cause instead of hardwork, i used my face & my body. Aku try jadi positive camne pun, nak ikhlas kan diri untuk belajar, aku dah tak boleh.

Aku dah takde semangat. Aku dah jadi negative camne ntah. Aku nak cepat blah, aku nak pegang duit, aku nak manja kan diri aku, and aku nak balas budi mak abah. 

The only thing that keep me going, is my faith toward this ayah "No small goes unnoticed". I believe, all this, one day akan berbaloi. Akan bayar balik. I'll get good job, good money, good reputation. 

I have faith that one day all this is worth it

And finally, believe that you are a diamond-in-the-making...

Tu je...

Hope semua tips ni membantu.

Good luck !

Wassalam

p/s: all picture is taken from 9gag, and not mine

From a loathful woman, came a powerful queen

Assalamulaikum

Final exam nak dekat dah. Tapi tadi aku tak dapat tidur sebab sakit perut & mual, so aku tengok movie since aku x dapat baring jugak. Baring lagi pening. Nape ntah. Aku tengok cerita 'The Other Boleyn Girl', insipired by novel written by Philippa Gregory , based on theories outlined in Retha Warnicke's book "The Rise and Fall of Anne Boleyn ".

10/10

Hostorically accurate ke tak, i dont think i have enough knowledge about that, but if u are curious, u can refer to this site . But the characters in the movie semua wujud, and the basic story ada. 

I always tell my close friend ( who knows my obssesion with old english movie ), that it is fascinating & proven how woman can change the world. Maybe with her beauty, charisma, the way she speaks, her her insightful mind, her grace. Just look how Anne Boleyn manipulated King Henry VIII until he decided to depart from Roman church, thus changing the England forever. For a woman.

For a woman. 

Enthralling.

Fascinating

Then after the ruling of Queen Mary I of England ruled for 5 years, came the ruling era of daughter of Anne Boleyn with King Henry VIII, the ever famous & powerful Queen Elizabeth I. 

Queen Elizabeth I,

played by Cate Blanchett in film

 Élizabeth' & Elizabeth : The Golden Age

And this is what strikes me. Anne Boleyn adalah perempuan yang dibenci England & synonym with manipulater, seducer and accused with treasons. How does it feel to have queen so powerful with spiteful mother ? Siapa sangka perempuan yang paling dibenci England bakal melahirkan kepada salah seorang perempuan yg paling berkuasa satu masa dahulu ? Apa rakyat dia rasa dulu ek?

For me, its interesting how God planned all this. He gave the best from the worst. From a loathful woman came a powerful queen.

I guess u can never guess the unexpected.When bad things happened in life may came the best of out best. 

Interesting is it not ?

=)

Wassalam

Eid al-adha & Lantern day Celebration

Assalamulaikum

Pagi tadi ada midsem, 2 papers. So so je. Antara boleh dah tak boleh. Hehe. By the way, last few week, ktorang ada buat majlis makan2 sikit, sempena raya haji aidiladha , & jugak sebab nak berkenalan dengan junior baru. It was fun & memorable, just the food was quite pricey. Tapi sedap la. Aku first time jadi orang naib pengerusi majlis, so aku handle menu makanan as the indians that day were vegetarian and some chinese could not eat beef, dan jugak games.  Here are the pics:-

- Classmates -

- le juniors -

- And sambut Lantern Day jugak.

Tulis nama & some words,

& lepaskan lantern tu kat langit-

- & your hipster princess, sofia-

Till then, 

Wassalam......

p/ s : Put me in the dirt, let me be with the stars -RIP to my youth, NBHD

Of Strained Chest Muscle and Sudden Realization

Assalamulaikum

Semalam terbangun pukul 3 pagi. Bahagian sternum and perut rasa sakit sangat. So i thought it was gastric. I made nestum, angin je keluar. Still sakit. I made another glass of milo. Rasa mual. Ingatkan sebab makan nasi lambat sangat hari tu. Then i took MgTrisilicate tablets 2 biji, and sambung tido.

Bangun je tido, ya Allah rasa bertambah sakit. Nak jalan pun sakit. Aku rasa suffocated so aku tak pergi kelas pukul 7 pagi tu. Aku try relax2 and maen laptop. Aku buat bubur then aku makan ranitidine sebijik. Still ubat tak jalan. 

Aku tak tahan rasa sakit tu. I pelik dah asal tak hilang2 then sampai susah nafas. Aku paranoid " eh aku sakit dada ke?". Even tak bole jalan sangat, aku decided kuatkan jugak diri, paksa diri mandi and pergi klinik. Sampai je klinik air mata aku nak menitis cerita kat doc tu. Then doc buat Electrocardiogram kat aku. Normal. Fuuhh Alhamdulillah loga den. Yang penting jantung kurniaan Allah swt ni. 

Doc diagnose aku, just 'strained chest muscle'. Doc cakap sebab aku exhausted or stress. Nampak tak nape aku tak bagi junior masuk ITB ?  Pastu maybe sebab dia kesian tengok muka aku cam acah2 nangis tu dia bagi la MC 2 hari. Balik je klinik terus aku pergi gerai nak makan sebab tak sabar nak telan ubat. Aku makan nasi 5 suap then telan all ubat. Sampai bilik boom baring. Sejam lepas tu, agony aku hilang dah. LOGA DEN ~ ~

Alhamdulillah

Malam lapar tapi taktau dinner apa. Oleh sebab aku dah 2-3 kali perut berangin jugak kat kosan baru aku ni, aku cam trauma ckit. Kalau ada rasa lapar cikit je, aku terus makan. Aku takde selera nak makan nasi, so aku goreng ayamas tu 3 ketul, telur sbiji and roti nan satu. Dikupas jugak buah mangga satu bagi pengganti jajan yang banyak MSG.

Aku letak je pinggan atas meja, aku rasa nak nangis. Aku terharu giler. Aku rasa macam kaya sangat. Malam ni aku dapat makan dinner yang mengeyangkan, buah yang juicy and manis, dan easy access to ubat-ubatan tatkala kesakitan. Aku rasa sangat2 beruntung2 aku dikurniakan semua ni. Cuba imagine kalau orang homeless tu strained muscle cam aku, dia mana mampu pergi clinic buat ECG. Imagine dia terpaksa tanggung je sakit tu sorang2 takde sape peduli lapar ke sejuk ke.

Alhamdulillah, kesakitan aku dah dihapuskan dan  perut aku dapat diisi. Tak tau camne nak explain perasaan terharu ni. Rasa untung sesangat. Rasa bersyukur. Aku tak layak langsung nak complain apa2 lagi kat dunia . Aku rasa lepas ni kalau ada aku mengeluh lagi, keluar la satu tangan halimunan tampar aku ni.

Korang kalau ada bumbung atas kepala korang, perut masih bole kenyang, badan masih sihat, sedarlan korang ni lebih kaya dari most people on this Earth. Jangan la komplain baju or tudung tak cukup or tak matching ke, handphone bukan the latest one ke, takde orang like pic insta ke, kulit korang tak gebu ke. Dunia semua tu, Ada benda nak makan tu pun seriously korang kena bersyukur.

TERHARU NYA

Syukur nya dengan rezeki Allah ni 

( T______T )

Wassalam

Review : PoBling Pore Sonic Cleanser & Pore Cleanser

Assalamulaikum

Hari tu rasa badmood sangat. Tension lain macam. So aku tak bercakap sangat satu hari and bukak laptop. Aku baca blog perempuan2 comel and then jealous sorang, " weyh kulit korang tak boleh flawless lagi ke ?? ". 

So aku pun melayari sesawang LAZADA. Note to future- self, never ever ever surf an online shopping website when badmood/ angry . Bengong nya, aku beli la 2 benda ni setelah baca some good reviews:-

-PoBling Pore Sonic Cleanser- 

Came with this packaging:-

And, titew pun beli ni jugak:-

- Spot Cleaner Black Head Blemish Pore Cleanser Blue Face Care Nose Clean- 

( amboiii panjang nama ) 

Kenapa beli ek 2 benda ni ? Sebab nak kulit flawless, giteww. Dok eh, aku menghadapi masalah white & blackhead yang agak banyak. Sure, everyone has it. Tapi aku punya white head ni cam banyak sangat tau. Bila aku study kt Bandung, white aku kurang, maybe sebab cuaca situ dingin2 bangat. Tapi kat Shah Alam, memang naik white/ blackheads aku. My pores lak, such huge pores  (T___T ) .

Yang first item, yang tu macam facial cleanser lak. Si PoBling ni tengah trending kat Korea and aku baca review, this type of sonic cleanser cleanse your face better than your fingers, thus wash away all dirt and lessen the pores's size. Tu yang terpengaruh tu. Betul la kan, kalau better cleansing, benda2 kotor takde la terperangkap dalam pori2, so kurang la blackheads kan ? Kan ? Kan ?

Second item lak, pfffftttttt, sila ketuk kepala aku dengan helmet. Bodo, membazir siot. Hahahahaha. Benda alah tu macam mini vacuum, to suck dirts from your pores, hence its name, Pore Cleanser. Tapi alahaiiiiiiii, power lagi hidung kau sedut hingus time selsema bang oiiii. Such weak suction power. So, DONT BUY IT. It doesn't do much but sucks the money out of your wallet.  Aku tekan2 si vacuum tu, macam tu jugak la whiteheads aku. Maintain terletak seperti kerudung dispray starch solution. :-

- All hail white heads. Yuckiesssss - 

X kena sedut pun, maintain je diorang berkhemah tepi hidung aku tu - 

- Ni rupa nozzle benda alah ni -

Then, aku baca la satu review ni. Untuk beza kan PoBling original and tiruan, mestilah ada nombor siri kat bawah or on it's surface of that PoBling, lyke dizzz:-

- Haruslah ada no siri kalau original- 

( taken from Google )

So aku pun check & check:-

- Takde no siri/ code la bhaiiii.

Tiruan ke bhaiiii ??-

Sobs

sobs

Sobsssssssss

Seriously sofia, jangan la anda bershopping ketika moody atau marah. Tengok, barang2 ni takde berkat. Cam bodo je, hahahah. Melayang duit mak aku ( masih student uhuk uhuks ) . 

So, sila berhati2 ketika shopping online okie? Selamat duit dan juga badan. Paling penting bila marah, bawak2 bersabar dan tengok la anime favourite anda daripada Lazada, hehe.

Tu je, Papai. 

Wassalam

p/s : sempat gak guna PoBling tiruan, 

actually even tiruan pun hasil nya agak memuaskan. 

Rasa lagi bersih. 

Peace. Out

Selamat Pengantin Baru : Syud & Nasa

Assalamulaikum

" Baraka Allahu Lakuma wa Baraka alikuma Wa jamaah baina kuma fee khai "

for syud and her SO

- Syud's nikah ceremony. Sekali lafaz je -

Haritu first time naek Firefly pegi Penang dengan Daniaal. Syazwan jemput kat airport and jugak jadi driver rasmi kitaorang for these 3 days and 2 nights rombongan cik syud. I stayed at wan's home and dear oh dear, his parents were lovelies. Thanks uncle and auntie sebab bagi tumpangkan rumah and layan saya dengan sangat baik sekali.

Qis was supposed to join this trip but she gotta go to Singapore, left me alone in that spacious room. Sampai hati ~~Syud's nikah was on 31st July while her wedding ceremony fell on 1st August 2015. I got the priveleged to watch her siap2 and kena make up and stuffs :-

- Make up on point! 

Lace bandung mareeee...sapa mau PM ?-

Masa bersanding, some ITBians/ classmates came and turut memeriahkan majlis. Tapi even bukan aku yang kahwin, rasa ponek weyh. Aku ulang alik Baling, Penang and Kuala Nerang je 3 hari ini. Kau tau tak jaooohh ?? Brape jam aku duduk dalam kereta je. Dah la si Daniaal bole lak datang malu2 kucing dia kat situ, dah aku terkontang kanting try borak2 mesra2 ngan saudara wan & syud. Loghat Kedah depa, tu dia tu dia, pekat sungggguuhhh. Orang Kedah peramah, lawak and suka melayan tetamu.

- Wan ( kiri ), Daniaal ( kanan) and princess kat belakang-

- Persandingan Syud -

Tema actually warna emerald green, tapi dalam gambar cam warna biru lak

- Classmates yang datang. 

p/s : Adeline ( middle) since with Eloon kemain glowy cam pengantin -

- Last but not least, jelitawans of ITB-

Habis je sanding syud, aku & daniaal  rushing pegi Penang airport, terus check-in, terus masuk flight , cam smooth giler sebab ktorag la yang last masuk. LOLOL, nasib baek la sompek, kalo tak burn RM130 abah aku..

Akhir kata, SELAMAT BERBAHAGIA SYUD & NASA KE ANAK CUCU. I know ur going to have a lot of cute babies ( damn good genes i tell yaaa ~), dan jugak TERIMA KASIH kepada parents wan and syud sebab terima saya dengan tangan yang terbuka. 

Wassalam

p/s : tapi siyes aku taknak dah pi Kuala Nerang ngan Baling, 

jaoh bak hang !

Self-conflict : Part 1

Assalamulaikum

Seronok hookay cuti 3 bulan ni. Result exam lepas ? Aku kena repeat 2 paper, wawawa ~~ Takpe, memang dah expect pun. Cam taik je aku jawab aritu.

Hari ni nak citer sikit pasal self-conflict and mencari jati diri, gitew~ Aku macam perempuan yang laen-laen, suka make up, baju cantik, high-heels and stuffs. Tapi aku tak pandai sangat make up, so ladies, here is my tips, kalau tak pandai pakai make up, tapi still wanna look stand-out, WEAR A DAMN BRIGHT LIPSTICK. It works every time for me. 

- Le sis in pink kurung in bright pink lipstick during last Eid.

Nampak menyerlah kan ?-

Pasal style, aku seorang yang simple. Aku hippies means aku tak ikut trend. Bukan nak mempoyo tapi aku memang camtu. Some girls just wear certain clothes just because it is so ín'  and so trendy during that time, buy do they even like that clothes? Habis je trend, baju2 tu dah tak pakai lagi. Aku tak suka camtu. Even benda like soooo last year, kalau aku rasa cantik, aku beli, aku pakai. 

Aku seorang yang suka makan and masak. Makan tu kena ditekankan sikit. Since last 7 years, i gained 11 kg. Giler kan ? Aku plak jenis kalo lapar, aku tak bole la nak makan salad ke apa, kena carik carbohydrate and protein. Kalau stress jangan citer la, aku bole makan 16 pieces of salmon sushi at 12 am, no regrets. Aku suka makan, and actually i dont really care about my body. Yes, im getting chubbier, tapi takde feeling apa apa pun.

- Hari tu pi Sarawak jap cuz le sis wanted to go down to memory land. 

Tengok sekolah lama and rumah lama. 

In this pic, i looked chubby. 

Current weight ? Tetttt taknak sebut- 

Kulit aku lak, coklat-kuning langsat  ( if it even exist, i dont know, huahuahua ), and im proud of it. Aku tak pernah bother nak putihkan kulit ke apa, sebab aku rasa kalau ko messed ngan body kau, the skin colour that has been programmed within your gene, inherited from your parents, bahaya. Benda tu semua kimia yang tak pernah di test dalam  clinical trial pun, camne kau tau benda tu selamat ? 

Sampai la umur anak dara camni, 24 years old bhai. Bhai bole kawen dah bhai. Sapa kata aku nak kawen ? Kahwin adalah satu perkataan yang aku tanam jauh2 dari hidup aku. Aku tak percaya kepada institusi perkahwinan, full stop.Ok aku merepek jauh, sambung balik.

Tiba2 feeling aku lain. bertukar 360 darjah . Bila aku shopping, aku cam risau adakah style aku ketinggalan zaman ? Bila aku tengok cermin, aku rasa gemuk, hodoh laen macam. Bila aku oles make up, aku pandang cermin , and aku pikir, "Kalau kulit aku putih, lagi cantik kott eye shadow ni ?". 

These stuffs keep bothering my head. Kenapa la aku kisah pasal benda ni ? Yes, jadi pandai lagi penting. Pandai carik duit, intelligent and jaga iman patut jadi aim hidup aku daripada jadi cantik kan ? Tapi kenapa i cannot be both ?? Siapa cakap perempuan tak bole pandai and  tak bole cantik at the same time ? So aku nak jadi cantik bole kan ? Korang paham tak self-conflict aku ni ?

Walaupun benda ni cam kecik, tapi aku siyez stress. Aku tak tau apa solution dia. Nak kuruskan badan and tahan selera ke ? Nak install balik insta then follow fashionista supaya aku boleh keep-up dengan the latest trend ? Kena beli QuPuteh or AuraWhite supaya muka aku glowy ?

- Ni insta cousin, aku selalu usha phone dia, 

then aku screen shoot kalo aku suka fashion minah2 ni. 

See, bibit2 nak jadi desperate wannabe dah ada-

Then, let say, aku buat semuaaaaa ni. Aku kurus, aku stylish, aku putih . Adakah diri aku yang ideal adalah seorang perempuan yang common ? Aku happy ke lepas tu ? Puas hati ke lepas tu ?

I will look like everyone else. Hepi ke aku ? Ntah.

Should i give it a try ?

Should i ?

- This is the latest attempt i did that i thought pretty.

Blouse & skirt are according to the latest trend.

Tim ni aku rasa hepi sebab rasa lawa.

Lawa tak weyh ??

Adesss...

Part 2 incoming, insha Allah

Wassalam

Wardah Lipstick tick tick tick

Assalamulaikum

Adakah anda mempunyai keluarga yang besar dan mempunyai auntie2 yang pelbagai selera dan kerenah ? Mereka juga mempunyai telepati kerana time korang nak balik cuti sem je, tiba2 whatsapp sibuk dengan pelbagai kiriman kain bandung & much2 more. Muahahaha

Aku ada 9 auntie. Ada yang kirim pisang salai, keropok cheese, korean paste ( dont ask), kain batik, kain pasang, kain songket, minyak aromaterapi, kerudung2 dan mukena yang pelbagai warna dan corak. Asal nak balik Malaysia je aku kopak. Haha, aku tak kisah pun sebab time aku kecik2 diorang jugak la yang suap aku biskut  coklat TORA. Seronok jugak shopping untuk orang, tapi bila part tahap specific diorang yang aku dah pening .

Case 1: Nak warna kuning mustard, ada sulam2 dengan manik2 sikit. Kain songket emerald green

Case 2: Nak tdung bawal, cotton, warna purple tapi bunga kuning

Case 3 : Beg kulit tapi tali pendek

Case 4: Kain batik lebar with max price of rm25 kalau bole

Case 5 : Nak tudung jenis yang x payah iron tapi matching semua baju

Case 6 : Nak album compilation 2PM

Case 7 : Nak jersey Bayern Munich

and so and so ........ (-_____-)

Kawan aku seorang ni, ada hari tu sampai habis minimum RM 1K sebab beli kain2 untuk sedara mara dan rakan2. Siapa yang buat business memang untung at least 2x ganda. Ramai ITB alumni juga masih datang ke bandung sebab mereka ada business kain sendiri selain tempah lace untuk nikah. Asal aku promote Bandung ni ? Iyyy aku nak blah tau tak. Hahaha.

Disambungkan cerita, kali ini kiriman bonda tercinta untuk kakak2 dan adik2 ipar  adalah lipstick WARDAH. Wardah is a local cosmetic product yang sangat famous bak hang. Anda kenal Dian Pelangi ? Dia ambassador Wardah . Anda kenal siapa kan pencipta Wardah ? Aku pun tak, LOL. Aku just tau pencipta Wardah adalah alumni ITB jugak. Salute to u madam !

-Dian Pelangi -

-Dian Pelangi memakai Wardah, taken from her insta -

Selepas exam biotech tadi, aku and Qistina pergi ke Ciwalk jalan cihampelas untuk berpoya beparti menghabiskan duit tapi untuk auntie2 tercinta di Malysia. This is what i bought today:-

- Facial wash and Lipstick-

-Hang nampak dok belakang tu ? Dian jeng jeng jeng-

- Colour yang dibeli adalah colour2 yang biasa dipakai middle age women, LOL

Tapi yang no 3 tu aku beli pinkish kerana mungkin auntie aku bakal menghadapi midlife crisis tidak lama lagi , just in case- 

- And, this wasn't bought just now, dah lama dah beli,

and it is mine !! My Wardah lipstick palette yo dawg-

Testimoni ( gituuuu...hey haruslah ) : Yang aku beli ni jenis matte, so bagi aku colour dia agak pigmented which is nice, tahan lama, melembapkan bibir and senang ditanggalkan menggunakan wet tissue. Bau dia macam bau vanilla i guess ? 9.95 /10 recommend to buy this. X silap time aku beli RM 40 ++. Owh yeah, the price is sangat affordable. 

Aku tidak rajin berselfie, tidak pandai membuat muka cute ( emang nya muka mu jelek ?? ) malah tidak ada ilmu photoshopped , tapi here is some pictures of my friends and me with wardah lipstick on :-

- Nampak tak ? Kalau tak, alamat nya pendek umur-

Harap2 auntie2 aku suka ka kat lipstick2 ni

Ponek aku naik angkut 2 kali tau dok 

Aku tak jual, saje pok pek pasal wardah because:

 1) aku boring   2) saje nak update blog    3) aku suka tengok warna2 lipstick ni    

4) aku suka wardah    5) coz its famous among Malaysians here i guess.......krik krik krik

Dah, tu je. Hehe. 

Papai

Wassalam

Of part-time job and sudden realization of being ungrateful

Assalamulaikum

Hari tu kan, masuk bilik air, tiba2 nangis. I figured out that i have been trying soo hard to prove that im miss independent, but the truth is i am bit lonely. The funny thing is bila dengan orang, i want to be alone. I guess that i want to spend my time with people that deserve it. Sangat diva. 

And aku jugak sedar sem ni aku tak banyak socialize. Tak banyak explore macam sem dulu2. Duduk kosan tengok indie movies. Introvert much, LOL. So tiba2 baru sedar aku ada setahun lagi nak habis belajar kat ITB, and i asked myself, "Dude, kau pernah pergi mana je sem ni ? "

So i decided to pindah kosan next sem, to have better study and social life. I want to explore, again. This time, aku akan cuba lagi supress sifat aku yang kurang negotiate dengan perangai orang ( oh my i dislike people this much ) .  I'll go jalan2 again, eat new food and meet new people. Insha Allah

So kalau nak jalan2 banyak pakai duit kan ? Being 24 y/o, tak kan la nak mintak duit mak abah lagi. Kesian la diorang, biar la diaorang enjoy duit diaorg tu, takkan aku nak mintak sebab aku yang nak enjoy ? What the.....

My bucket list ( Indonesia ) :-

-Yogyakarta

-Lombok

-Bali

Wanted to earn money made me scrolling some blogs pasal orang kerja part time. Annnnnnd whaddaya know, it hit me again. Allah memang selalu akan bagi petunjuk di mana2 bila2 masa. Kan aku selalu complain pasal ITB. Bila aku baca blog pasal susah nya orang carik kerja, aku serious insaf sekejap.

Ada la seorang perempuan ni, dia ada Degree Account kott, tapi kerja pembantu kantin and kerani je. Ada seorang peguam ni, just kerja syarikat bumiputera with RM 1200 with elaun, dekat Shah Alam. Being a shah alam citizen myself, rm 1200 mana cukup bang nak hidup. Sambal sotong pun rm2.50 seketul. Kisah benar daripada bonda yang tercinta.

So, baru cam teringat la dulu2 betapa deseprate nya aku nak degree farmasi ni. And betapa bersungguhnya mak and abah suruh aku belajar tinggi2 ni, because of this kind of thing la. Supaya aku hidup senang nanti, insya Allah, supaya direspect orang, and etc.

Insaf kejap, tak tipu . Baru teringat balik betapa happy nya aku dulu masa dapat offer ITB ni. Rasa cam doa dimakbulkan. Rasa cam ni la jalan yang betul. Rasa cam Allah bagi hadiah direct. Tapi bila belajar susah, aku mengeluh.

Sorry mak abah aya pernah mengeluh. Astaghfirrullahalazim. Ni hadiah sofia. HADIAH. Tolong la appreciate. (^____^) 

So disambung kan cerita, aku pun baca la lagi pasal blog. The only option i have now is Secret Recipe dekat SACC Mall, KFC dekat PKNS complex, or as cikgu ganti kat SKBA sek 6(2). Insya Allah

Bila rasa kekurangan sesuatu,

Tengok orang yang lagi susah.

U have complained too much sofia

Say Alhamdulillah

And live your life

(^____^)

- hari tu ada dinner ngan PM Malysia kita, jib2 and mah.

I dont care i dont call them by their name,

I dont have respect for those who lavishly spent their rakyat money.

Pergi dinner sebab makan free je, hahaha.

Duit GST mak abah aku jugak kan , LOL-

Wassaalam

Everything

Assalamulaikum

Sejak delete social media  ni,

rasa peaceful giler

Dah tak rasa marah2 , dah x rasa annoying

Dah tak mempersoal kan apsal manusia perangai pelik2 mcm takde tuhan

macam takde tujuan

macam tak mati je besok 

So aku pun pegi tumpu kat benda lain

Which i think helped me a lot, on 

stuffs that REALLY MATTERS

So, through out this process, 

i learn many stuffs,

& banyak kali rasa malu sebab dah umur 23 tahun ni

banyak benda aku jahil

Nak tanya, korang rasa umur 23 tahun ni x agak tua ke nak tau everything

or too young to know everything ?

I feel like i want to know everything now

NOW

But, HOW.......?

-Keep on reading everyone !!!-

Wassalam

The Neighbourhood (The NHBD )

Assalamulaikum

Guess the latest post is not the last one huh? Hehehe. Rasa memang dah banyak berubah la since masuk ITB ni . In a good way. Alhamdulillah. Still banyak lagi nak belajar. Insya Allah.

So aku perasan some or most of the post since masuk ITB are mostly sangat emo or sangat serius. Huahuahua. So aku nak post benda lagha cikit la hari ni haaa~~

Music. Music tu kalo aku bole tengok rupa fizikal dia, dia mesti rupa macam like a faceless creature with wings. Because music can take u to another place. And those wings keep u high & keep u warm like one's hug. Hyperbola ~~

Aku nak introduce a band 

 - THE NEIGHBOURHOOD - 

This is not the typical band with eye candy cowok2 nya ya neng2 sekalian. Memang baby face, tapi music diorang sangat2 matang. They dont sing about sex, money, women and etc. They sing about life, love, revulsion and the little things that make u liberated in this repulsive world. 

There are soo much emotions in one song that can make me feel happy but vulnerable, buoyant but sense of clingy, pinnacle but misery , ALL at the same time.

They sing about REALITY. They dont go over the board sangat macam sehidup semati dalam cinta. Love is something simple like, in one of their song, 'Sweather Weather' : It's too cold for you here and now so let me hold both your hands in my sweather  " . 

As simple as that. Love is keeping your hands warm in his worn-out jacket.

First time aku dengar lagu diorang is ' Baby Came Home':

''Baby came home today. Told me to stay away. She said i cant love her no more. She's gone all the time. Baby had all my trust. But i guess it's never enough. So baby packed up all she had. Promised to never come back. I think if u found her, even u would know, that she is mine. That girl, is mine ''.

Confusing giler kan lagu dia ??? Hahaha. Girlfriend dia nak tinggalkan dia, dia frust, but still that girl is his. Maybe im just that weirdo emo girl with weirdo taste, tapi lagu ni buat aku terbuai2 and sedih at the same time. Makes no sense right ??

Aku suka almost all the song of The Neighbourhood. Aku suka all those feelings in one song. About all the reality we face everyday.

                                                          - Baby Came Home-

Another song, 'Little Death'-->  "Make me feel like i am breathing. Feel like i am human. Darling , your looks can kill. So now you are dead ''.

Sweet sangat. Sangat3. Sangat3. Aku ketagih kat lagu ni tak tahu berapa kali dah ulang. Sangat high tapi rasa lonely, misery and lovely. It's so confusingly addicting  (T____T )

                                                                     - Little Death - 

Ok2...last one, 'STING':

''I told you im sorry. Couldn't thank u enough. I thought that i love u, but we weren't in love. Imagine our children, how f****d up would they be. Mommy's a psycho, Daddy lives in a dream. U liked to think, we would push through the bad.  Ignoring the problems just to hold what we had''

                                                                            -Sting-

It's like the reality of a messed up couple. Both have to go separate ways despite all the promises they had, because they will mess up more than ever, for a better life. Lagu ni sedih , macam ada orang luah kat aku sebuah cerita sedih, and aku paham dia. 

Ke memang aku emo. Hiks

Tapi band ni langsung tak emo. This is an INDIE BAND baby.  Bukti, this song lari sikit  from the usual The NHBD  :-

                                                                      -Jealousy-

Rap + pop indie + saxophone = perfection !

Salah satu faktor lagu The Neighbourhood buat peminat dia rasa mcm low dose LSD is because of this man ----------:

- Jesse Rutherford-

His voice is sooooooo soothing & so sexy at the same time

He is like the singer version of my Alan Rickman 

Dead serious

Urghhhhh 

This band makes me feel so real, so human. =)

The NHBD

Wassalam