2016: Year of Glory and Gore ( Part I )

Assalamualaikum

Watashiwa sangat free menternak lemak sekarang. Watashiwa jugak sedang retake lesen mmandu sebab lupa renew lesen. Jadi, sebab nak masuk tahun 2017 and jugak sebab aku lgsung tak update apa2 spanjang tahun 2016, i decided to write some highlight that took place this year.

Bismillah....

Menjadi student ITB merubah segalanya. Dari perangai, pegangan, karakter & tujuan hidup . Aku manjadi agresif, negatif  dan depressive. Yang bagusnya salah satu perubahan aku adalah aku decided nak jadi INDUSTRIAL PHARMACISTS lol. Siapa sangka ? Semuanya sebab FYP  & final year. 

Final years punya subjek pertama kalinya sangat menarik & masuk kepala aku. Selama 2 tahun aku study ITB, aku tak tipu aku rasa 30% je ilmu masuk kepala weyh. Aku cam tak paham  apa benda langsung, nangis2 nak quit bagai. Tapi final years punya menarik sampai pointer aku naik. Kan orang dah cakap, kalau kita minat something, segalanya akan menjadi.  FYP aku pulak, sangat susah. Kat sini semuanya kau kena carik & prepare sendiri. Hydrochloric acid, gingerol standard, ethanol 99.5% dan lain2 nya, kau sendiri kena contact supplier dan beli. Kau nak buat mikroskopic test? Carik sendiri rujukan & glycerin carik sendiri. Kau nak prepare std solution 50ppm? Kau cari sindri micropippette. Kau nak concentrated kan extract kau ? Beli sendiri evaporating dish.  Kau nak test sample? Beli sendiri TLC plate. Pokai ko tau, aku habis RM1k++ okayh.

Super duper independent. Result kau mereng ? Jangan harap supervisor nak tengok mana salah.  Sendiri carik reason dia. Pandai2 la kau. Oven 500C tu dah penuh? Pandai2 la kau rebut. Kesimpulanya, KEPAYAHAN MMBUAT FYP tu membuat aku super berdikari mencari ilmu2, dan ilmu2 tersebut menyebabkan AKU SANGAT PAHAM INDUSTRI & TADAAA, AKU MINAT TERUSSS !!! 

Rahsia Allah der, kau takkan paham. Aku yang meraung menangis nak quit ITB finally decided nak masuk industri yang dulu sangat merentap jiwa dowh. Ni la FYP aku :- 

Ni la sample i. Baby i. Sayang nak mamp. Dah habis je study, aku seludup semua balik malaysia, jangan harap aku bagi orang lain, aku yang prepare okaaayyy.

My pwecioussss

And this is my ultimate darling, SFE. 

Aku adalah student degree pertama yang handle machine ( sebelum ni student Master je). And dia dtempatkan di lab student PhD. Sebagai org pertama, aku agak terkontang-kanting handle benda ni, kena marah dgn assistant sebab aku mmg tak tahu camne nak operate. Gi library pun takde sangat info. So, aku belajar sendiri. Honestly, aku sangat proud bila dah mahir sampai budak Master yang lain carik aku mintak ajar guna. Aku sangat hepi supervisor & assist, supervisor bagi kepercayaan handle machine ni even lab scale je. Tuhan je tahu pernah aku lari kat tangga nangis2 sebab aku tak larat dah handle benda ni, dengan condition yang susah nak precise, lagi berat nak mamp lak penutup dia tu, dengan oleoresin yang payah nak keluar dari extractor.

Selepas Seminar = FYP presentation

Lepas seminar, 3 hari aku pengsan sebab terlampau exhausted.Good times baby

Ni adalah selepas Sidang = Oral exam

Balik je enjoy makan RM30 punya seafood palette. Good times baby.

Sidang ni macam the last stage untuk graduate. Lepas all mata pelajaran kau lulus, next step ialah seminar then finally, sidang. Lulus je sidang, officially kau dah habis tamat belajar di ITB. Dalam sidang, kau akan disoalan dari apa yang kau belaja selama di ITB dari 4 departments, selama 40 minit. Its an experience of a lifetime dude. Aku exam kul 10.30pagi, result umum pukul 5.30 petang. Semua students berkumpul and dean akan umumkan result sorang2.

Saat je pak diky panggil aku, "Aya Sofia?'', aku bangun, then pak diky "LULUS'. Aku senyum then aku urut dada. Yang paling drama bila qis punya result yg kena umum. Pak diky cakap dia lulus je, meraung dia kat situ hahaha. Sebab qis punya soalan sangat2 susah. Dia keluar je bilik sidang tu pukul 4.30, dia tak habis meraung menangis sampai la result dia. Lepas je aku tau semua geng2 aku lulus sama-sama, baru aku nangis. Ngeh3. Terharu beb segala penat lelah aku akhirnya berbaloi dan aku lulus bersama2 kawan susah senang aku. Macam filem dowh. Where's my Oscar? Hahaha.

My journal akan dipublish. Carik la kalo dapat hahahah

And finally............

...............Aku grad..............

Bachelor of Pharmacy, finally

Industrial Pharmacists =)

to be continued......

Wassalam

Bachelor of Pharmacy

Assalamulaikum

It has been a year since aku last update blog. January-September 2016 tersangat la busy with study. Kalau bukan study, sibuk ngan drama, depresi & menlagha kan diri. Hehehe.

So, aku dah graduate. Yeay me !!'

- - Time raptai convo. Aku first to walk the stage from Sekolah Farmasi. Ngeh3 - 

- Itew tengah tunggu nama itew -

- Its me, walking on the stage, so proud & so damn happy !!! -

The moment it was announced four of us passed the sidang together, aku rasa terharu sangat3. Ni la kawan yg mnolong tak kira aral mlintang. Kawan2 yg praktis sama2 waktu malam, tolong mnolong bwat lab fyp, tolong mnolong2 ble pokai. LOL

I love u Rachna, Siew Yee & Qis

- Thanx juniors bawak bunga & belon - 

- Pre-convo session with Rachna. Maklumlah, excited dapat jubah tekau -

- Thanx mak abah. This is all for u- 

So, 

Aya Sofia

BACHELOR OF PHARMACY

........Alhamdulillah...........

Wassalam

Self-conflict : Part 1

Assalamulaikum

Seronok hookay cuti 3 bulan ni. Result exam lepas ? Aku kena repeat 2 paper, wawawa ~~ Takpe, memang dah expect pun. Cam taik je aku jawab aritu.

Hari ni nak citer sikit pasal self-conflict and mencari jati diri, gitew~ Aku macam perempuan yang laen-laen, suka make up, baju cantik, high-heels and stuffs. Tapi aku tak pandai sangat make up, so ladies, here is my tips, kalau tak pandai pakai make up, tapi still wanna look stand-out, WEAR A DAMN BRIGHT LIPSTICK. It works every time for me. 

- Le sis in pink kurung in bright pink lipstick during last Eid.

Nampak menyerlah kan ?-

Pasal style, aku seorang yang simple. Aku hippies means aku tak ikut trend. Bukan nak mempoyo tapi aku memang camtu. Some girls just wear certain clothes just because it is so ín'  and so trendy during that time, buy do they even like that clothes? Habis je trend, baju2 tu dah tak pakai lagi. Aku tak suka camtu. Even benda like soooo last year, kalau aku rasa cantik, aku beli, aku pakai. 

Aku seorang yang suka makan and masak. Makan tu kena ditekankan sikit. Since last 7 years, i gained 11 kg. Giler kan ? Aku plak jenis kalo lapar, aku tak bole la nak makan salad ke apa, kena carik carbohydrate and protein. Kalau stress jangan citer la, aku bole makan 16 pieces of salmon sushi at 12 am, no regrets. Aku suka makan, and actually i dont really care about my body. Yes, im getting chubbier, tapi takde feeling apa apa pun.

- Hari tu pi Sarawak jap cuz le sis wanted to go down to memory land. 

Tengok sekolah lama and rumah lama. 

In this pic, i looked chubby. 

Current weight ? Tetttt taknak sebut- 

Kulit aku lak, coklat-kuning langsat  ( if it even exist, i dont know, huahuahua ), and im proud of it. Aku tak pernah bother nak putihkan kulit ke apa, sebab aku rasa kalau ko messed ngan body kau, the skin colour that has been programmed within your gene, inherited from your parents, bahaya. Benda tu semua kimia yang tak pernah di test dalam  clinical trial pun, camne kau tau benda tu selamat ? 

Sampai la umur anak dara camni, 24 years old bhai. Bhai bole kawen dah bhai. Sapa kata aku nak kawen ? Kahwin adalah satu perkataan yang aku tanam jauh2 dari hidup aku. Aku tak percaya kepada institusi perkahwinan, full stop.Ok aku merepek jauh, sambung balik.

Tiba2 feeling aku lain. bertukar 360 darjah . Bila aku shopping, aku cam risau adakah style aku ketinggalan zaman ? Bila aku tengok cermin, aku rasa gemuk, hodoh laen macam. Bila aku oles make up, aku pandang cermin , and aku pikir, "Kalau kulit aku putih, lagi cantik kott eye shadow ni ?". 

These stuffs keep bothering my head. Kenapa la aku kisah pasal benda ni ? Yes, jadi pandai lagi penting. Pandai carik duit, intelligent and jaga iman patut jadi aim hidup aku daripada jadi cantik kan ? Tapi kenapa i cannot be both ?? Siapa cakap perempuan tak bole pandai and  tak bole cantik at the same time ? So aku nak jadi cantik bole kan ? Korang paham tak self-conflict aku ni ?

Walaupun benda ni cam kecik, tapi aku siyez stress. Aku tak tau apa solution dia. Nak kuruskan badan and tahan selera ke ? Nak install balik insta then follow fashionista supaya aku boleh keep-up dengan the latest trend ? Kena beli QuPuteh or AuraWhite supaya muka aku glowy ?

- Ni insta cousin, aku selalu usha phone dia, 

then aku screen shoot kalo aku suka fashion minah2 ni. 

See, bibit2 nak jadi desperate wannabe dah ada-

Then, let say, aku buat semuaaaaa ni. Aku kurus, aku stylish, aku putih . Adakah diri aku yang ideal adalah seorang perempuan yang common ? Aku happy ke lepas tu ? Puas hati ke lepas tu ?

I will look like everyone else. Hepi ke aku ? Ntah.

Should i give it a try ?

Should i ?

- This is the latest attempt i did that i thought pretty.

Blouse & skirt are according to the latest trend.

Tim ni aku rasa hepi sebab rasa lawa.

Lawa tak weyh ??

Adesss...

Part 2 incoming, insha Allah

Wassalam

Of part-time job and sudden realization of being ungrateful

Assalamulaikum

Hari tu kan, masuk bilik air, tiba2 nangis. I figured out that i have been trying soo hard to prove that im miss independent, but the truth is i am bit lonely. The funny thing is bila dengan orang, i want to be alone. I guess that i want to spend my time with people that deserve it. Sangat diva. 

And aku jugak sedar sem ni aku tak banyak socialize. Tak banyak explore macam sem dulu2. Duduk kosan tengok indie movies. Introvert much, LOL. So tiba2 baru sedar aku ada setahun lagi nak habis belajar kat ITB, and i asked myself, "Dude, kau pernah pergi mana je sem ni ? "

So i decided to pindah kosan next sem, to have better study and social life. I want to explore, again. This time, aku akan cuba lagi supress sifat aku yang kurang negotiate dengan perangai orang ( oh my i dislike people this much ) .  I'll go jalan2 again, eat new food and meet new people. Insha Allah

So kalau nak jalan2 banyak pakai duit kan ? Being 24 y/o, tak kan la nak mintak duit mak abah lagi. Kesian la diorang, biar la diaorang enjoy duit diaorg tu, takkan aku nak mintak sebab aku yang nak enjoy ? What the.....

My bucket list ( Indonesia ) :-

-Yogyakarta

-Lombok

-Bali

Wanted to earn money made me scrolling some blogs pasal orang kerja part time. Annnnnnd whaddaya know, it hit me again. Allah memang selalu akan bagi petunjuk di mana2 bila2 masa. Kan aku selalu complain pasal ITB. Bila aku baca blog pasal susah nya orang carik kerja, aku serious insaf sekejap.

Ada la seorang perempuan ni, dia ada Degree Account kott, tapi kerja pembantu kantin and kerani je. Ada seorang peguam ni, just kerja syarikat bumiputera with RM 1200 with elaun, dekat Shah Alam. Being a shah alam citizen myself, rm 1200 mana cukup bang nak hidup. Sambal sotong pun rm2.50 seketul. Kisah benar daripada bonda yang tercinta.

So, baru cam teringat la dulu2 betapa deseprate nya aku nak degree farmasi ni. And betapa bersungguhnya mak and abah suruh aku belajar tinggi2 ni, because of this kind of thing la. Supaya aku hidup senang nanti, insya Allah, supaya direspect orang, and etc.

Insaf kejap, tak tipu . Baru teringat balik betapa happy nya aku dulu masa dapat offer ITB ni. Rasa cam doa dimakbulkan. Rasa cam ni la jalan yang betul. Rasa cam Allah bagi hadiah direct. Tapi bila belajar susah, aku mengeluh.

Sorry mak abah aya pernah mengeluh. Astaghfirrullahalazim. Ni hadiah sofia. HADIAH. Tolong la appreciate. (^____^) 

So disambung kan cerita, aku pun baca la lagi pasal blog. The only option i have now is Secret Recipe dekat SACC Mall, KFC dekat PKNS complex, or as cikgu ganti kat SKBA sek 6(2). Insya Allah

Bila rasa kekurangan sesuatu,

Tengok orang yang lagi susah.

U have complained too much sofia

Say Alhamdulillah

And live your life

(^____^)

- hari tu ada dinner ngan PM Malysia kita, jib2 and mah.

I dont care i dont call them by their name,

I dont have respect for those who lavishly spent their rakyat money.

Pergi dinner sebab makan free je, hahaha.

Duit GST mak abah aku jugak kan , LOL-

Wassaalam

Everything

Assalamulaikum

Sejak delete social media  ni,

rasa peaceful giler

Dah tak rasa marah2 , dah x rasa annoying

Dah tak mempersoal kan apsal manusia perangai pelik2 mcm takde tuhan

macam takde tujuan

macam tak mati je besok 

So aku pun pegi tumpu kat benda lain

Which i think helped me a lot, on 

stuffs that REALLY MATTERS

So, through out this process, 

i learn many stuffs,

& banyak kali rasa malu sebab dah umur 23 tahun ni

banyak benda aku jahil

Nak tanya, korang rasa umur 23 tahun ni x agak tua ke nak tau everything

or too young to know everything ?

I feel like i want to know everything now

NOW

But, HOW.......?

-Keep on reading everyone !!!-

Wassalam

Ice queen

Assalamulaikum

I have done one social experiment by my own

And its proven

Once u decided to walk away from someone elses life,

they'll be chasing u like a mad dog.

Harsh

but true.

Dont u ever start this cold war with me,

coz believe me,

Im the ice queen

-Happy Belated Befday Qistina !! -

Wassalam

Heart doesn't feel love

Assalamulaikum.  Recently something happened.  We fought. By we I mean four of us, the jelitawans of ITB. Lol

Ok so eventually ada sesi meluah kan perasaan. And she said she loves me. She owez think of me in making every decisions in ITB and she hated it when someone badmouthing about me. When she was weeping (I think 3x) uncontrollably,  I was quite shocked. Wow, she really does love me.

So....here is the thing. I dont feel the same way towards her. I juz think she is juz my another friend whom i gonna forget and lost contact, juz like others....To her, im somewhat special idk ....

So sekarang perasaan bersalah ni macam gunung atas dada. But that doesnt mean I love her bleyh bleyh bleyh tapi time dia sebut dia sayang aku, aku pi bantai senyum and tutup muka. Sebab selama ni aku selalu x puas hati kat dia.

Introvert hates clingy people. She is. She is kinda clingy. Right now Im thinking a way to pujuk her back , but this juz an act of guilt. Not love.

Hati aku ni batu. Orang sayang pun buta, x nampak. Mungkin tu Allah nak tunjuk. Selama ni aku nak bestfriend yang sayang aku, Allah pun bagi la dia. Allah bagi dia bila expectation aku orang lain. My bad

So sofia lepas ni jangan complain. Allah dah bagi , kau lepas kan.

Weyh ya Allah degil nya aku. Circumstances made me bad. So bad. What is happening to me actually ? Dah keras sangat ke aku ni?

Closer

Assalamulaikum. Trauma dekat study ? Yes, wujud.

Rasa nya lepas berhempas pulas last sem ditemani dengan air mata, jeritan and etc, tu la sebab nya nape aku trauma nak balik Bandung kott.

I think I have problem with " Sometimes what u want is what u cannot get " ...I always think that if u worked hard enough for it, u will get what u want. But world doesnt revolve that way.

And then being lovely as she always is, my sister told me these fascinating words " Kakak2 kat usrah adik kalau diorg dah belajar gila2 tapi still x dapat, diorg stil cakap Alhamdulillah sebab Allah dah bagi at least sikit kat diorg. "

Im closer to my dreams.  Insya Allah

Wassalam

ITB : Industrial or Clinical. Choose

salam

Final dah nak dekat..actually, lagi 3 hari...kat bandung takde study weeks ye tuan2 puan2...masak la korang nk cramp banyak2 =P

Ok, this is a bit story about ITB.

ITB or Institut Teknologi Bandung is the best university in Indonesia. Semua top students , budak2 nombor 1 dalam kelas di Indonesia sahaja yang deterima masuk ke ITB. Memang hebak2 la students sini. Kemasukan international students started tahun apa aku x tahu. International students ni dari Europe, Arab, China, Vietnam , Malaysia etc.

Pharmacy kat ITB ada 2: Clinical Pharmacy and Industrial Pharmacy

Read this very carefully ya, course yang diiktiraf oleh MQA & Pharmacy Board of Malaysia is INDUSTRIAL PHARMACY. Before masuk ITB, aku tau the course i was going to study is industrial, tapi ingat kan industry means machines ( i thought machines ni a bit interesting la kan), so alang2 nak bergelar Pegawai Farmasi, aku pegi ITB dengan hati yang gumbira.

I WAS WRONG. Industrial means MATH, PHYSICS, CHEMISTRY. Sangat2 ditekan kan. SANGAT. Kalau clinical u belajar formulation, eg: choosing the right surfactant, dalam industrial,  u learn in choosing the lowest or highest ZETA potential for emulsion or suspension. ZETA potential is physic thingssssss.

Dalam clinical u maybe belajar the problem of suspension like flocculation, creaming etc, dalam industrial u'll learn about reducing the free surface energy. In clinical u maybe belajar choosing the right viscosity agent, here we learn about choosing the right rheology for each dosage form. Semua nya sangat heavily in physics.

Calculations, numbers, formulas......

Mind you, kalau korang sangat pandai dalam kira2, korang insya Allah boleh survive kat sini. Tapi kalau korang otak biology cam aku, think twice thrice banyak kali before masuk ITB.

Owh ya, i really3 hope my junior baca post ni.Sebab benda ni sangat penting and i bet agents2 kat malaysia takkan bagitau korang benda ni. Hari tu Pharmacy Board datang ITB, and lepas sorang2 kena ambush termasuk aku ( -_____- ) , Pharmacy Board announced that we will be the LAST BATCH that is capable to go for CLINICAL PHARMACY LICENSE. 

Pharmacy pun ada 2 jenis lesen ye kawan2: 1st lesen is for u to go work in hospital as pharmacist a.k.a dispenser yang korang nampak duduk kat kaunter  bagi arahan camne nak makan ubat. 2nd lesen is Industrial lesen di mana korang akan bekerja di kilang2 ubat like Zuellig di Shah Alam ( yes, aku dah pikir kalo susah sangat, pegi je la Zuellig kt Bukit Jelutong tu ). So lepas ni, kalau korang masuk ITB, korang hanya bole apply lesen untuk INDUSTRIAL PHARMACY sahaja. So pikir masak2 before apply !!

Industrial Pharmacists sangat2 masyuk and ada life compare to clinical pharmacy. Tapi industrial pharmacy banyak paper work. Disebabkan Malaysia bukan negara yang pioneer ubat seperti US, korang sebenar nya hanya memantau the medicine making process mengikut rules & patterns establishes a.k.a BOSAN. Korang tak payah nak berangan nak cipta ubat baru. Kirim salam. Tapi lain la kalau korang nak masuk bidang Health, Herbs or Cosmetic Products. Haaa, this is where Industrial sangat beneficial sebab korang bole kaya macam Dr Rozmey =P . Bussiness kan ?

For me, sebenar nya aku prefer clinical pharmacy. The one that handles CDR, TPN, dispensing semua. I love that since diploma lagi. Time practical tu la yang paling aku suka. Tapi disebab kan rezeki dah kt ITB even aku still bole buat lesen in clinical, this made me think twice. Kenapa Allah masuk kan aku at sini sedang kan Dia tahu aku benci dan lemah dalam fizik ? Sekarang aku dah tau.

Sebab He wants me to be better version of myself. That simple. Dia nak aku face my fear and overcome it. Setakat ni aku belum berjaya overcome as mid sem hari tu aku almost fail in physical pharmacy a.k.a the physics in pharmacy . Tapi beza nya aku sekarang aku dah rela and aku dah reda.

Dulu aku sangat marah, tension, depress, benci bila belajar benda2 ni. Tapi sekarang aku ready untuk menerima segala ilmu fizik, statistic, kimia kat sini yang Allah bagi. Aku reda. Mana la tau sofia yang korang tengok sekarang bakal jadi tauke kosmetik or health products pastu kayo cam Sendayu Tinggi ke. Or korang akan nampak aku dispense ubat kat hospital. Either way. Aku rela either Clinical or Industrial.

I am where He wants me exactly to be. All is according to plans. So Alhamdulillah. I have nothing to regret for as He gave everything more than i could ever asked.

-Le classmates-

- Aku yang kena peluk ngan amoi adeline tu -

wassalam

SKY IS NOT YOUR LIMIT

salam

Life is different now. IM DIFFERENT. Haha, yes, i changed. A lot. To the point im confusing myself & dont recognize my own thoughts, my own screams, my own anger.

Im getting fierce, sometimes mean, yes a lot of bi**chy, sometimes overtorelant, emo emo emo, sometimes over optimist.

This is all because MY BRAIN IS MATURATING

Hahahahahaha !!! Get it ? Get it ? Get it ? No you dont. So im going to elaborate it more.....

You see, remember when i told u we only use 3% of our brain to live ? So maksudnya aku rasa time diploma farmasi dulu aku guna 0.00000000000000000001 %. Owh yes !!

Dulu ingat belajar Farmasi ni hafal2 je. Slap my arm n call me sally ! Bulls**t ! Hey dulu time buat ubat, formula dari British Pharmacopoiea dah tersedia, kami students hanya perlu weight & buat & dispense. Kini di ITB, tiada lagi MELAYU MALAS. Ini MELAYU RAJIN PUNYA , READ THIS DR.MAHATHIR!!

-MgTrisilicate Suspension-

Owh  so u think u simply can refer to internet ? DO IT, I DARE YOU ! Btw, yang atas ni is the formula yang paling aku PROUD sangat because this is MY FORMULA. 

U see, in order to formulate, kau kena pikir preservatives, buffer, colouring, flavouring, antioxidant, sweetening, anticaplocking, suspending/emulsifying agent, wetting agent. Easy u say ?? Kalo ko nak preservatives, u have to think whether it needs COMBINATION of preservatives or not. Kalo u nak buffer, u have to seek da pKA value in any books n calculate n see whether the pH value suits ur pH physiology of eyes or any cavity. Colouring, u have to see whats da age of patient, kalo berumur die taknak pink2, kena warna kuning. Kalo budak, kena pink. Flavour, hah, my klazmate ada yang taruk ROSE AQUA for above formulation. Mind u friend, rose aqua untuk EXTERNAL sahaja. Kalo sakit perut of course u dont want any banana flavour rite? U want mint ! So u said u can simply use sucrose as sweetening agent ?? Dude, sucrose promotes dental cavity n bad for obese kids. So how to solve it ?? Use glycerol! Or sorbitol ! & U think u can use any emulsifying agent ?? Which method, dry or wet ?? Which form needs to form soap?? Its external ! Internal u only need to prepare PRIMARY EMULSION! 

On the first week of pharmaceutical lab,our lecturer, Bu Lucy who is the WRITER OF PHARMACOPOIEA, punya mengamuk & asked us to go back to Malaysia and even called us STUPID & HOPELESS. Semua tak tau buat formulation.

But then i didnt give up ! I didnt. I challenged myself. I pushed myself to the limit & NO I HAVENT REACHED MY LIMIT YET. My brain is 2 kg, it needs to be filled more than this !

Belum masuk subject laen babe..............how to polymerize the mutant gene ? How to culture virus in monkey's kidney ? Chemical composition of Lavandula Spica ? ( soalan midsem sedangkan ktorg x pernah belajar pun dalam kelas. Yes, diorg suruh ktorg FIKIR )

NO IM NOT BLUFFING yang aku la yang paling pandai & aku la amik course paling susah kat dunia. NO ! 

I wanna tell you this, this is how you can beat the JEWISH, the CHINESE ( non-racist statement. Juz motivation)

CHALLENGE URSELF. SKY IS NOT UR LIMIT. UR DEATH IS ! Bila dah mati nanti, baru berhenti berpikir ! Only rest when it is time to rest !

Rasa dah saturated otak ? Hahahaha, lawak gila! Siyez lawak !

I LOVE ITB sooooooo much =D !!

I remembered time exam kat masterskill, i was thinking " Setakat hafal2 je buat apa. X guna otak pun. Jewish invented formula n here i am memorizing one of them "

Allah Maha Dengar. Amek ! 

- Primary Emulsion of Cod Liver Oil -

- Sugar-free Suspension Formula -

- Check whether the dose prescribed is SAFE or not -

- Calculation of buffer-

- See above, we use the wrong buffer- 

So this is how it feels like,

TO THINK

 TO UTILIZE, TO MAXIMIZE

 YOUR GOD-GIVING BRAIN

I AM A SURVIVOR 

& I MUST SURVIVE THIS 

wassalam

Welcome to Bandung

salam

Im in Bandung now n sorry for long-waiting update. Me busy n me got no internet. Dah beli broadband tapi line cam baboon ( sebenarnya nak sebut haiwan yang kena samak tu..tehee) .

So, let me start with my first arrival in Bandung, 13th August 2013. Mom didnt cried like she used to when we siblings were about to separate for study ( especially my sis, Ainun. Mom rentap tangan Ainun and peluk dia at International Gate. Hahaha) . Me ? I didnt. Until i entered the plane =P . I was crying & weeping & forcing myself to stop. Girl, ur 22. Big girls dont cry . Coz, ya lo, 8 months of holiday siap ke Europe London bagai, tiba2 kena study. Hehe, xde la, plus tiba2 teringat kat  pengorbanan mom & dad in order for me to study in Bandung. I owe them much3 ( see bakal suami, thats why saya taknak kahwin awal. Saya nak hantar diorg pegi Umrah dulu )

First Impression ? the Reality met Expectation. I mean, before pegi Bandung aku dah set mind , " Indonesia bukan cam London, so do not expect anything first class or perfect condition & stuffs. Ur going there to STUDY " .

Traffic jam sini bapak teruk. KL standard nya teruk. The road condition here is pretty bad, berdebu, berlubang, hon hon hon. But yang buat aku pelik sangat2, once u reached the destination after the tough time on the road by angkot , let say Ciwalk Mall, serious lawa sangaaaaaaatttt. Sangat fancy, sangat 1st class & the best thing is sangat MURAH !! Weyh, mana lagi kau bole makan kat fancy restaurant with only <RM 15 ( food + drink + dessert ) ? & let me tell u one thing, kau xkan bole diet di Bandung. Semua SEDAP =D

I met few seniors, n Alhamdulillah, diorang super duper nice. Ready to help & owez there when i need something. On 1st September , ada Eid Dinner for malaysian students in Bandung.And  its a tradition for freshie like my friends and I kena buat persembahan. We decided to make short-movie, and in the movie  :-

- wa jadi ROCKERS !!-

Seniors puji n cakap video kitorang membanggakan ITB =P n believe it or not, ramai yang bergambar aku suruh aku wat pose rockers. Well, im good =P . Classmates semua pun sporting & talented kott, especially syazwan the Editor , awesome sangat dia edit .

- Malaysian Students in Bandung-

- Classmates ( tapi x cukup .Ada yang x datang) -

- I had a blast =)

Iewan won the 'Prince' title that night, Hot stuff 3x!! -

About study tu nanti la update. Sebab hari ni ktorg nak masak nasi lemak & other malaysian foods, yeay !!

Till then

wassalam

One step at a time..

salam

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Apa lagi yang kau takut ??

 

UNCERTAINTY......

I dont know how to express this thru words. All i can tell is, my prayers, were answered. All of my doubt, vanished , when he said " YOU GOT IN"

I was soooo shocked. I couldnt speak. I cant express this gratitude but to Him. He gave me soo many signs. Its like, " Dont think too much. Dont worry anymore. THIS, is the right path for u. Your future."

Im happy, really i am. MayB because im afraid of the future. How, how im going to survive this ? Can i make it ? I will sure do, because of many candidates applied for it, im the who got in. ME . 

 

HE CHOSE ME

 

He knows what perfect for me. Cant you see ? This is a sign. So stop worry sooo much. Now, what do you need to do is:-

1) Study really hard

2) Strive hard for your future

3) Give your best effort

You're 22 now ....ACT YOUR AGE. 

Leave all your past behind . Those angers, i know, they arent there , in your heart anymore. U decided to let it pass, forget, and CHANGE.

He gave you this very golden chance, to rise. To become a better you. For you to take one step to the ladder of ....the REAL YOU.  Soo much potential in you, He wants you to dig deeper, until a DIAMOND you are. 

 

So say " Alhamdulillah", take this chance & let it rockin your world. =)

 

psssttt, I GOT IN.

Institut Teknologi Bandung,

 

Degree of Pharmacy

 

 -Tower Bridge, London-

( tengah bajet J.Lo )

wassalam

 

p/s: DOA is the best WEAPON

 

Some men are just plain stupid

salam

It takes no slutty-experiences to detect kaki pompuan. All u need is BRAIN. Feelings ? Those are juz u being horny after watching Edward Cullen's desperation to keep Bella alive.

So juz like u, i had message with guys, not many, but still got numbers. I did that bcoz i was curious about the 'kapel2' thang & also bcoz of the uncontrollable teenage hormone. Blame the anatomy. Not Greys Anatomy, McDreamy is not dreaaammyyy at all.

Luckily, i was intelligent enough ( ehem ) to utilize my brain and did successful scanning of 'kaki pompuan'.

Easy peasy but not cheezy.

Yang paling top dalam senarai ' The CHEAPEST TACTIC EVA ' :-

* kejap ye awak, saya nak solat

* sori lmbat, pegi mengaji tadi

* isshh, awak jangan balik lambat sangat tau, risau saya. 

* saya sayang awak cam saya sayang adik pompuan saya

* x chat ngan boyfren ke ?

* saya x pandai, x hensem, x kaya

I get that a lot. Then they wont hear a thing from me eva. Kalo betul ko mngaji or solat n stuffs, ko xkan message2 + flirt ngan strangers. Please jangan gunakan agama untuk nafsu kau. Aku pelik la camne ada girl yang bole fell to this cheap tactic.

So dipendekkan cerita, my love one just had her first boyfriend. I dont mind really but she had my suspicious instinct aroused when she told me her 'boyfren' semalam dompet hilang, so lapar n gastrik, then the next morning she bought him McD.

ITS BULLS**T. Dompet kau hilang, x pergi report polis, siap boleh lak cakap IC & LESEN MEMANDU je yang x hilang ( bende paling penting dalam dompet ), pastu mintak pompuan belanja McD ?? Ma love jugak cerita laki ni selalu minx pompuan je kol, laki tu jarang kol.

Owh, i know this type of guy very3 well. He is 'Kaki SPEDO' . Dia yang romatik akan kikis duit kau sampai ko terbelelek jatuh miskin. Then he will leave u like a speed of lightning.  Pompuan ni pemuas nafsu die je.

 

 

 

Silap ma love one gak, terlalu percaya kat lelaki yg die baru kenal 2 minggu kt WeChat ( Lisa Surihani x terlibat tau ) . Aku xnak buat die terasa yang aku x approve tapi stil; marah aku meluap2, so aku mintak permission si love one untuk 'uji' this kaki spedo.

& may i say some men are just plain stupid .

 

It was sooooo damn easy.  

 

Inferents : That spedo is juz playin with her. 

Hypothesis : The greater the money & lust are offered, the greater the speed spedo will dumb her

Materials  : 1. Wechat profile pic yang gedik

                  2. Message2 yang flirty , gedik, n alluring.

Method : 

-Add spedo kt wechat

-Gedik2 x igt dunia

-Berlagak cam orang kaya

- Sampai spedo kuar kan statement :-

     " Eyy, mana ada gurlfren la"

     " Saya chat ngan awk sorg je"

     " Belanja saya besok "

     " I love u  "

-spedo ajak dating

-bye spedo

Results:-

 One hour:-

Mintak gmbar aku

 

Two hours :;

" I chat u sorang je. I x pandai la message2 ngan pompuan' " I xde gurlfren la "

 

Three hours  :

" Jom la support i sabtu ni. I maen untuk Malaysia. Petang i jemput. nanti kte balik sama2"

" I nak show off kat kawan2 i . Ingat dioarang je ke yang ada girlfren" 

" I love u "

 

One day :

" Belanja saya besok " ( aku gtau aku keje kat butik & agak masyuk )

" U pakai nombor apa ? " ( suruh aku kol )"

BLOCKED at WeChat. BYE SPEDO

 

Results: Spedo is PROVEN SPEDO !

He was juz playin with her n her money. Nasib baek la die x slut, kalo x dah hilang maruah dah ( yes that guy did offer smthin ) 

Its EASIER than i thought. Aku target 2 minggu untuk mission ni, tapi dia panggil aku 'gurlfren' die within TWO FREAKIN DAYS.  Nampak bonar x ikhlas. Penipu.

Taruk gambar hot sikit, gedik2 sikit, blakon cam cheap bimbo sikit, dah meleleh. Ur so easy so & so plain stupid, spedo.

Womens' heart are not meant to be played. Yes, u did it, berjaya mainkan entah bape ramai la pompuan, aku tak tau. Tapi kau x pikir one day anak kau akan kena maen gak .

She seemed hurt, kinda. Nampak la termenung2 . But she will move on. 

 

N please to XX genes, please play HARD TO GET. Jangan la murah sangat. Maruah tu rendah sangat ke ? Jangan mudah dipermainkan. 

 

RAISE YOUR STANDARD.

 

 

 

 till then

wassalam

Collge Stuff

salam

DIPLOMA IN PHARMACY

is COMPLETED

Alhamdulillah =)

Waaaahhhh, itew nak buat kronologi boyeh x awak ? Hik3. Mayu itew bajet2  biography ney. Hiks

Aku still ingat 1st time aku masuk AMU. Full of doubt. 1st time gak naek flight sorang2, nangis kot. Heh. Dok pikir2 " Betul ke apa yang aku buat ni ? Nape aku quit matrix ? Ni jalan yang betul ke ? " . Sampai je airport, djemput by bus to the 1st hostel, - Cemara.

& its ugly. Rasa cam tersentak. & on the first day itself 'she', my roomate talked about boys non-stop. I should had known, sigh ~ . Proud la gak bila x nangis 1st day, i was wrong , tears dropped out 2nd day . Ahaks. For the first week, x blaja pape, just sesi berkenalan dengan 200 ++ coursemates.

Sem 1- Sem baru 'NAK UP'. 

Haha, yup. Aku salah pilih kawan, culture shock lagi with social stuffs etc. At first result exam aku gempak2 gak, fav student tu . Then i got carried away with , u know, social thang . Terus jadi fav topic among lecturers " What happen to her ? "

Sem 2 -It was a nightmare

It started with da feeling of awesomeness.  Bajet senior la . I broke up with Nik, then in love again with Mafia =) . Sem ni aku teruk sangat dari segi study, perangai la & kawan pun ramai as Kim Kardashian was my idol, hiks3  ( sarcasm  ) . 'IT' happened, aku tangguh sem.

Sem 2  (II ) - Recovery

Masuk balik kolej, with new spirit. The 1st person aku tegur was  Cyn. And my new coursemates were very friendly - Anis, Azrin, Helena, Irene, Pera, Arshanah, Neeva, Kash, Alif. 

Sem ni memang aku dok tebalkan muka di mana2 aku jalan, because rumours were spitting on ma face. I trauma tau nyah. Kalo i ostrich nyah, boleh jugak sorok muka dalam tanah . Hehe

 Sem ni dah serius study  balik, but i hated Physiology class because the lecturer was a liberal lady and she was delivering the poison of 'Islam Liberation ' . Bonci den, effect eh den dapat 'B' . 

Sem 3- Liberation

 FUN !! Aku kuar dari comfort zone aku dengan menyanyi, menari &  bersajak  depan orang ramai which something yang aku xkan buat lagi . Suara sumbang kott ! Bukan nyanyi2 mendayu2 'Patah Seribu' by Shila Hamzah tu, nyanyi because i was forced by lecturer or no 'A'. Aku tanya mak, die cakap x dosa. Kan ? 

Aku berlakon jadi hamba omputih during W.W.Birch memerintah Perak during drama class, buat cter hantu 'NANG NAK' for IT assignment n x tido sampai pukul 4 pagi. It was FUN. Really. Tapi aku  dapat A-  for IT. Mano tak ey, exam kol doblas, sibuk berlakon jo kojo, baru la baco notes pukul seblas, camno la nak dapek 'A' ??

 - Nyanyi2 & bersajak dengan Anis.

Muka budak agi. Hak2 -

- Hamba Omputih yang berkening sambung.

Time practice drama -

Sem 4 -  18 Crazy Chapters

The second toughest sem. Aku sangat benci klaz 'Pharmacology' by telinga berbulu ( literally ) lecturer. Dio lansung x mengajar ! Baco yo slide. Camno den nak paham cubo ko kobar kt den ? Den pon polaie, ponteng ah ( Dont try this at home ) . 

1st time buat lotion, cream, ointment, expectorant semua. Wahh, rasa cam  real pharmacist. Subjek 'Dispensed' yang paling syiooookkkk n buat semangat aku nak jadi 'Pharmacist' berapi2.

 - Primary Emulsion.

Rindu lak nak buat ubat lagi =) -

Sem 5- Doctor ??

The TOUGHEST SEM !! Waargghhhh, aku rasa cam DOKTOR  kamu tau ! Nasib baek parents den x suruh masuk Medic, mampuih berasap medulla oblongata !  Otak dipaksa jadi National Dictionary - copy paste sebijik2 nama antibiotic, TB, anthelmintic, leprosy, antiviral, all doses, MOA, calculation, technology, pharmaceutical industrial,  rupa2 n jenis2 bacteria n virus,diseases,  management, procedure2 yang aku xleyh nak kira . 

Tapi semangat n self-motivation aku tinggi sem ni. Aku buat mind-map, notes, PMS, pergi library, midnight-oil. Pendek kata i was a total dedication NERD. I gave a 100% commitment, sacrificed a lot of things, studied 3x. I constantly reminded myself how important this is to my future. NERD ! But,  WORTH IT. CGPA naik mendadak  & aku PUAS sangat2 . Korang pun pernah rasa camni kan ? Korg really worked hard it n in the end, it really paid =D

 -  Microbiology lab thang-

Sem 6 - Still a doctor eyh ??

HARD but least than sem 5. Again, my brain was forced to photostat all the stuffs- OTC, anti-venom, acne, lice etc . Project Presentation dengan research nya, & 1st time belajar LAW ( Occupational Safety & Health ). & Sir Syahid sangat la hensem weyh !! Aku, anis, irene n pera memang lupa diri bila mr.syahid mengajar =P .

Sem 7 - Hospital Practical at DEMC

Malas lak aku nak ungkit balik. Sila baca di sini - AyaSofia Comel . Hampeh kan link? Doa tu.

Sem 8- Hospital Practical at Hospital Ampang 

Awesome ! Made me more passionate & motivated to be a Pharmacist. Walaupun jadi kuli tak berbayar kepada pharmacist kat sana ( sedar la budak praktikal ye dok  ? ) , tapi aku belajar banyak sangat3 sangat.

- Tengah buat Omeprazole Syrup for highly acidic infant- 

- still we had fun among ourselves
1Malaysia dok ? -

Sem 9- Last but not least

Suppose this is the easiest sem ever, tapi apa nak buat kalo dapat lecturer syok sendiri. Apa feeling korang bila dah penat2 study, time exam baca je the 1st question :-

" 1) ______________________ is the carrier of AIDS/HIV

A. Chimpanzee from West Africa

B. Chimpanzee from South America                       "

Monyet, really ?? Monyet ?? Monyet kau tanya aku ?? Nak je aku.....eeyyyy, nasib baik ko lecturer ! 

Tapi its otherwise with another subject. Aku belajar pasal Drug of Abuse @ Dadah2 terlarang cam cocaine, heroin, marijuan etc. Syiok ! MayB sebab aku minat filem & movies so filem2 Hollywood kan banyak pasal drug stuffs kan, so aku excited belajar Drug of abuse ni.

 - US - 

Alif xde dalam pic ni, apsal la ko ponteng on laz klaz alif uit !

I dont have any decent picture of him, only dis :-

- Muka tension time test-

Sedar x sedar dah 3 tahun aku kat sini. Wah ! Quite a long journey for me to become as what i am right now. I thank Allah ( Alhamdulillah ) for this meaningful & invaluable experiences, Lecturers for the precious knowledges, Friends for stand together for these 3 years ( i love u guys much3 )

The END is only the BEGINNING

NOW,

BACHELOR OF PHARMACY

insyallah =)

wassalam