2016: Year of Glory and Gore ( Part I )

Assalamualaikum

Watashiwa sangat free menternak lemak sekarang. Watashiwa jugak sedang retake lesen mmandu sebab lupa renew lesen. Jadi, sebab nak masuk tahun 2017 and jugak sebab aku lgsung tak update apa2 spanjang tahun 2016, i decided to write some highlight that took place this year.

Bismillah....

Menjadi student ITB merubah segalanya. Dari perangai, pegangan, karakter & tujuan hidup . Aku manjadi agresif, negatif  dan depressive. Yang bagusnya salah satu perubahan aku adalah aku decided nak jadi INDUSTRIAL PHARMACISTS lol. Siapa sangka ? Semuanya sebab FYP  & final year. 

Final years punya subjek pertama kalinya sangat menarik & masuk kepala aku. Selama 2 tahun aku study ITB, aku tak tipu aku rasa 30% je ilmu masuk kepala weyh. Aku cam tak paham  apa benda langsung, nangis2 nak quit bagai. Tapi final years punya menarik sampai pointer aku naik. Kan orang dah cakap, kalau kita minat something, segalanya akan menjadi.  FYP aku pulak, sangat susah. Kat sini semuanya kau kena carik & prepare sendiri. Hydrochloric acid, gingerol standard, ethanol 99.5% dan lain2 nya, kau sendiri kena contact supplier dan beli. Kau nak buat mikroskopic test? Carik sendiri rujukan & glycerin carik sendiri. Kau nak prepare std solution 50ppm? Kau cari sindri micropippette. Kau nak concentrated kan extract kau ? Beli sendiri evaporating dish.  Kau nak test sample? Beli sendiri TLC plate. Pokai ko tau, aku habis RM1k++ okayh.

Super duper independent. Result kau mereng ? Jangan harap supervisor nak tengok mana salah.  Sendiri carik reason dia. Pandai2 la kau. Oven 500C tu dah penuh? Pandai2 la kau rebut. Kesimpulanya, KEPAYAHAN MMBUAT FYP tu membuat aku super berdikari mencari ilmu2, dan ilmu2 tersebut menyebabkan AKU SANGAT PAHAM INDUSTRI & TADAAA, AKU MINAT TERUSSS !!! 

Rahsia Allah der, kau takkan paham. Aku yang meraung menangis nak quit ITB finally decided nak masuk industri yang dulu sangat merentap jiwa dowh. Ni la FYP aku :- 

Ni la sample i. Baby i. Sayang nak mamp. Dah habis je study, aku seludup semua balik malaysia, jangan harap aku bagi orang lain, aku yang prepare okaaayyy.

My pwecioussss

And this is my ultimate darling, SFE. 

Aku adalah student degree pertama yang handle machine ( sebelum ni student Master je). And dia dtempatkan di lab student PhD. Sebagai org pertama, aku agak terkontang-kanting handle benda ni, kena marah dgn assistant sebab aku mmg tak tahu camne nak operate. Gi library pun takde sangat info. So, aku belajar sendiri. Honestly, aku sangat proud bila dah mahir sampai budak Master yang lain carik aku mintak ajar guna. Aku sangat hepi supervisor & assist, supervisor bagi kepercayaan handle machine ni even lab scale je. Tuhan je tahu pernah aku lari kat tangga nangis2 sebab aku tak larat dah handle benda ni, dengan condition yang susah nak precise, lagi berat nak mamp lak penutup dia tu, dengan oleoresin yang payah nak keluar dari extractor.

Selepas Seminar = FYP presentation

Lepas seminar, 3 hari aku pengsan sebab terlampau exhausted.Good times baby

Ni adalah selepas Sidang = Oral exam

Balik je enjoy makan RM30 punya seafood palette. Good times baby.

Sidang ni macam the last stage untuk graduate. Lepas all mata pelajaran kau lulus, next step ialah seminar then finally, sidang. Lulus je sidang, officially kau dah habis tamat belajar di ITB. Dalam sidang, kau akan disoalan dari apa yang kau belaja selama di ITB dari 4 departments, selama 40 minit. Its an experience of a lifetime dude. Aku exam kul 10.30pagi, result umum pukul 5.30 petang. Semua students berkumpul and dean akan umumkan result sorang2.

Saat je pak diky panggil aku, "Aya Sofia?'', aku bangun, then pak diky "LULUS'. Aku senyum then aku urut dada. Yang paling drama bila qis punya result yg kena umum. Pak diky cakap dia lulus je, meraung dia kat situ hahaha. Sebab qis punya soalan sangat2 susah. Dia keluar je bilik sidang tu pukul 4.30, dia tak habis meraung menangis sampai la result dia. Lepas je aku tau semua geng2 aku lulus sama-sama, baru aku nangis. Ngeh3. Terharu beb segala penat lelah aku akhirnya berbaloi dan aku lulus bersama2 kawan susah senang aku. Macam filem dowh. Where's my Oscar? Hahaha.

My journal akan dipublish. Carik la kalo dapat hahahah

And finally............

...............Aku grad..............

Bachelor of Pharmacy, finally

Industrial Pharmacists =)

to be continued......

Wassalam

Bachelor of Pharmacy

Assalamulaikum

It has been a year since aku last update blog. January-September 2016 tersangat la busy with study. Kalau bukan study, sibuk ngan drama, depresi & menlagha kan diri. Hehehe.

So, aku dah graduate. Yeay me !!'

- - Time raptai convo. Aku first to walk the stage from Sekolah Farmasi. Ngeh3 - 

- Itew tengah tunggu nama itew -

- Its me, walking on the stage, so proud & so damn happy !!! -

The moment it was announced four of us passed the sidang together, aku rasa terharu sangat3. Ni la kawan yg mnolong tak kira aral mlintang. Kawan2 yg praktis sama2 waktu malam, tolong mnolong bwat lab fyp, tolong mnolong2 ble pokai. LOL

I love u Rachna, Siew Yee & Qis

- Thanx juniors bawak bunga & belon - 

- Pre-convo session with Rachna. Maklumlah, excited dapat jubah tekau -

- Thanx mak abah. This is all for u- 

So, 

Aya Sofia

BACHELOR OF PHARMACY

........Alhamdulillah...........

Wassalam

TIPS: HOW TO SURVIVE IN UNIVERSITIES/ COLLEGE LIFE ( especially ITB )

Assalamulaikum

I think aku dah bosan study. Aku tak sabar nak grad & pegang duit sendiri. Some said dunia study paling senang. Maybe. Tapi aku dah muak dah la. Serious. Aku dah tak ikhlas dah belajar semua ni. Dah la salah masuk course, racism &  double standard everywhere, aku tak nape aku belajar certain subjects like takde function and etc. Hope aku tak rendahkan semangat any students who are reading this. Go do what u love. Dont let cynical & sadist me ruin your enthusiasm. 

Now we get straight to the point. First thing first before u enter university/ college life, keep this in mind : LIFE WILL BE DIFFERENT & U'LL CHANGE. Mostly changed for good. It wont be easy, trust me. It takes every ounce of your energy, your motivation & your sweats and tears lol. ( Ke aku je yang rsa camni? Haha).

Tips2 nya adalah :-

1) Concentrate dalam kelas

 Kau maybe tak paham dalam kelas lepas tu kau pikir, "rilex la, aku pahamkan kat rumah ". NO. Sebab kau masuk je kelas lain, lecturers bagi assignments. Pastu kau masuk lab, tambah report, tambah journal. Ko masuk extra class, tambah lagi presentation. Literally , kau memang takde masa pastu kau dok tangguh n tangguh n tangguh nak pahamkan apa yang kau tak paham, sampai la exam, Time tu takde masa, baru kau sedar betapa penting nya BAGI PAHAMKAN STRAIGHT DALAM KELAS. Kalau kau x paham 100%, at least get the idea. Mcm aku serious x paham all physics stuffs dalam subject Instrument, tapi at least aku cuba paham yang benda ni nak detect impurities dalam ubat by using UV/Vis wave. 

2) Make your own notes

Yes kau ada buku teks, ada internet. Tapi yang keluar dalam exam is what your lecturers taught in class. ( Even some lecturers  diaorang memang tanya out of topic, but mostly hint dia dalam kelas ). Apa dia ajar, even takde dalam slides notes  or books, kau wajib catat even small details. Aku banyak kali survive exam sebab kebetulan aku ada catat benda2 kecik dalam kelas. Aku tak tipu, one day masa lecturer nampak ktorang dah bosan, pastu dia cakap "what is the first taste sense that will go away if u have flu? U wont taste any sweet taste". Aku tulis benda tu then before exam aku sekali imbas je ternampak notes aku. Bammm keluar soalan.  Students laen keluar dewan tanya "weyh ada ke dia ajar ??". Yes , ada, Kau memang kena tumpu . Lecturers kalau dah geram, memang diaorang test students macam ni.

3) Baik dengan seniors

Even kau menyampah mana pun dengan senior korang, diaorang ada satu ego korang kena feed. Diorang suka kalau juniors bertanya soalan. And actually murah hati kalau korang mintak NOTES, SLIDES, PAST YEAR QUESTIONS & QUIZZES. Korang mintak je tips all before pergi exam sebab prediction diorang mostly 60% akan keluar dalam exam. Jangan gaduh dengan senior, sebab let say kau dah buat hal kat sorang, kau rasa kawan2 dia yang laen nak tolong kau ke ? Nama kau dah buruk kat situ. Seriously, kalau kau baik dengan senior, kadar survival rate kau kat universiti naik 40%. 

4) Baik dengan lecturers

Ada beza buat baik and kaki kipas. Kaki kipas is student tu tak berusaha like others, tapi markah dia selalu tinggi coz selalu bodek lecturers. You guys maybe pikir , "takkan lecturers takde integrity bias sebab students baik dengan diorang ??". 

You guys lupa satu benda, LECTURERS ARE HUMAN. Diaorang maybe ingat budak2 kaki bodek ni budak baik, so lepas mengajar budak2 keras kepala & kaki tidur macam you guys, dioarang happy tau ada students yang at least tumpu dalam kelas ( that's what they taught ). 

Buat baik is, JANGAN MELAWAN. Even korang rasa lecturers tu tak adil, discriminate, taknak negotiate tarikh exam, jangan sekali-kali raise your voice and lawan. Keep this in mind, YOUR FUTURE IS IN THEIR HANDS. Imagine korang dah berkelakuan kurang hajar, and kebetulan in exam, korang tinggal satu je markah nak lulus. Dia bole je luluskan, tapi kau dah buat taik, so dia failkan kau. True story.

Buat baik means, jangan ponteng melebihi kuota, lol. Bila lecturers tau korang kaki ponteng, bila korang tak score dalam exam & u guys mintak second chance by doing assignments, jawapan tipikal diorang would be, "U could not answer during exam because u WERE NOT in the class". Jangan bagi impression kaki ponteng, ever.

Buat baik juga bermaksud, hantar assingments on time dan please  kurangkan plagiarism ( try to maintain the originality of your assignments at 60% at least ).

5) Buat baik dengan assistants.

Most lecturers ada assistants dioarang sendiri, especially lab assistants. You guys jangan pandang rendah kat akademik diorang, because most assistants are Master student, or in training to be lecturer. 

I feel bad to say this, but memang extra point if u guys cantik/ lawa or handsome. Again, assistants are human too. Dalam kelas aku ada this guys always survive because almost all assistants tangkap cintan dengan dia. Aku tak cakap guna lah kecantikan korang if nak survive, this is soooo wrong. Tapi, kalau korang dah notice some special attention to u from that particular assistant, use it. Korang boleh bertanya lebih and they might give u extra answer & tips. True story. Im sorry, tapi dunia ni memang agak lebih mudah bagi orang cantik. ( my opinion). I once read, "Being ugly in this world seems like playing a game in a hard mode". 

Tapi tak semua assistants gatal. Ada assistants yang betul2 nak guide & tolong korang. If korang jadi kawan dia, and tunjuk kan semangat nak study, memang diorang TOLONG SANGAT2. Diorang akan bagi markah tinggi dalam tests, dalam reports, dalam exam, and before exams, they might give some good tips to you guys.

So again, be good to the lecturer's assistants. 

6) Study weeks

If you guys ada past year questions from seniors or library, first thing first DO/ PRACTICE THE PAST YEAR QUESTIONS. Even korang belum habis ulangkaji all notes, seriously practice dulu past years, and cari jawapan for the questions. 70% chance soalan yang sama akan keluar lagi dalam exam in different ways. Say, in 2011 punya soalan tanya pasal method of detecting alkaloids in diagram type of question, possibly in your exam akan keluar method of detecting alkaloid in essays. 

Let say if tak sama pun, the pattern will be the same. Tak sayang ke if korang tak practice past year questions, then tiba2 keluar soalan sebijik. Maybe if korang practice, you guys can get even Á in that particular subject. Or it can give u the idea of the lecturer's pattern about the exam. I have this lecturer, in the objective/ multiple choice questions, dia suka letak dekat 'D; All the above is true'. And selalu nya 'D' is the right answer. True story, again.

Lepas practice past year, baca balik all old tests and quizzes. 10% chance the questions will be asked in exam are the same questions from the test/ quiz.

Then baru korang bole baca notes/ slides/  reports/ text books or internet. Try habiskan all before exams, and again, please ask your seniors for some tips. Trust me.

7) Sleep

Don't worry pasal mata panda or tak cukup tidur, sampai korang penat la yakin kan diri, "owh sehari kena tidur 8 jam". Bulls**t. Tidur terletak dekat no 2 terakhir in what-to-do list korang. Korban tidur itu normal. Tough sikit. ( Terakhir is tengok wayang , hehe ).

8) Duit

Korang kena pandai manage duit in college life. Mostly duit akan terbang dekat assignments, reports, ink printer ( if u have printer), kertas A4, alat tulis, alat lab2 ( e.g: gloves, masks, spatula), final year projects and MAKAN. Makan tu aku tekan kan sikit, cause please2 jangan skip makan. Kalau takde duit sangat pun, at least makan telur goreng dengan nasi. Bila all this hectic datang, korang sangat memerlukan energy. Being tired, lethargy or sick are the things u mostly want to avoid.

9) Drama

Drama itu sentiasa ada, sebab manusia lain2 perangai. Yang ni aku x bole bagi tips sangat, sebab aku try elak camne pun, aku selalu dalam drama. Aku pun tak paham. Just because aku tukar status in Whatsapp pun jadi isu, apatah lagi isu lain. Aku moody time PMS, orang bole benci aku cakap aku tak professional. Manusia susah nak dipuaskan, so all i can say is, PILIH KAWAN yang kau betul2 matching and stick with her/ him. Yang lain kau xpayah carik gaduh, just act professional dan kawan macam biasa, because it'll bring much trouble kalau korang terpaksa buat assignment dalam satu kumpulan, apatah lagi lab partner.  

Ada la satu time ni, minah dua ni gaduh besar. So sorang ni sampai la hati hantar assignment, tak letak nama dia lalu submit, thus jadi isu dekat assistants, so dia dicop pembawa masalah. So please, try to avoid all this drama. 

Kalau korang dah terlibat, please act all classy about this. Jangan jadi budak2 pergi post status kt FB, pergi marah2, pergi report kat lecturers. Dah masuk university ni, please act like a grown up. Bila dah terlibat, bawak2 bersabar, kalau x tahan sangat, luahkan kan la bestfriend korang or your mom. And if u decide to counter attack, do it in a proper way. Example, if budak tu dah pergi report kat lecturer, korang jumpa lecturer tu balik with enough evidence. Balas balik with good marks, good name and good behaviors. Nothing is better when you smile where everyone expect you not to. 

Nothing good ever comes if u throw tantrum in the class, fb or instagram. Again, YOU ARE A SCHOLAR, ACT LIKE ONE.

10) Have time for yourself

Yes CGPA itu penting. Tapi CGPA bukan segalanya, Tak berbaloi sebab exam korang tiba2 dapat sakit buah pinggang ke, sakit denggi sampai tak pergi hospital, sampai pengsan sebab terlalu penat, kena masuk IV la apa la. Tak tak. 

Ingat dulu purpose korang masuk universiti ni. Nak dapat kerja elok, nak balas budi mak abah, or maybe for some nerds out there, because u guys memang betul2 minat nak belajar. Kesihatan adalah salah satu kurniaan yang paling berharga. Sekali Allah tarik nikmat tu, sebanyak mana pun duit tak kan mampu bagi balik tubuh badan yang dulu. Penat la korang makan collagen, stem cell, virgin olive oil, supplements, tetap takkan sama macam dulu.

Lepas dah habis all kerja, spend some times on fun activities, examples : baca pinterest, 9gag, facebook or some novels for few hours before go to sleep, pergi jogging waktu petang, tengok movies dekat laptop ( time ni korang tertengok 18sx movie secara tak sengaja, because internet tak censored. Brace yourself), pergi shopping or even masak. Pergi makan tempat fancy, or watch some football match, pergi dinner kat hotel or even socialize with other students from other universities. Pergi usrah, baca yassin or dengar kuliah Nouman Ali Khan. 

Masuk la kelab2 if berminat, masuk pertandingan or sukan tahunan. 

You'll make great memories, new friends and even may develop new skills or find new talents within yourself . 

11) Have faith

Dulu aku selalu ingat, if kita work hard enough, kita akan berjaya. Tak, i was wrong. Kejayaan takes sooo much more than hard work. Aku pernah study giler2 , tapi aku kena repeat jugak paper tu. Banyak kali. Aku tak paham kenapa bila aku dah study pun, still aku tak score. sangat. Kat mana silap dia, Allah je yang tahu. Ada sekali tu malam before exam with 5 more topics to be covered, aku dapat soalan exam from that good looking guy, who asked the questions from some girls who had the exam already. Not fair right ? World is not fair, the one im living in. Bagi aku yang dah tercemar dengan persepsi negative due to all this unfairness, the no 1 tip is U MUST KNOW HOW TO SURVIVE. 

Honestly, aku dah buat benda yang sama, as i figured this is one of the way to get what i want. Ada la seorang assistant ni, yang garang memanjang & bias terhadap perempuan cantik. Aku dah try mintak kunci locker untuk final year project for 1 month, and asyik direject. Then the next day, one of my classmate beritahu that particular assistant layan je apa dia nak, for an obvious reason, she is pretty. One day, i did my make up extra, I did my tudung nicely, and wore pretty cloth. I speak nicely to him, bammm, i got the key right away.

Believe me, kau ingat aku tak tau ke berdosa tunjuk kecantikan kat orang, untuk dapat benda yang kita nak ? 

This is the the world im living right now. I know all this is some kind of tests to me. I failed one test, cause instead of hardwork, i used my face & my body. Aku try jadi positive camne pun, nak ikhlas kan diri untuk belajar, aku dah tak boleh.

Aku dah takde semangat. Aku dah jadi negative camne ntah. Aku nak cepat blah, aku nak pegang duit, aku nak manja kan diri aku, and aku nak balas budi mak abah. 

The only thing that keep me going, is my faith toward this ayah "No small goes unnoticed". I believe, all this, one day akan berbaloi. Akan bayar balik. I'll get good job, good money, good reputation. 

I have faith that one day all this is worth it

And finally, believe that you are a diamond-in-the-making...

Tu je...

Hope semua tips ni membantu.

Good luck !

Wassalam

p/s: all picture is taken from 9gag, and not mine

Eid al-adha & Lantern day Celebration

Assalamulaikum

Pagi tadi ada midsem, 2 papers. So so je. Antara boleh dah tak boleh. Hehe. By the way, last few week, ktorang ada buat majlis makan2 sikit, sempena raya haji aidiladha , & jugak sebab nak berkenalan dengan junior baru. It was fun & memorable, just the food was quite pricey. Tapi sedap la. Aku first time jadi orang naib pengerusi majlis, so aku handle menu makanan as the indians that day were vegetarian and some chinese could not eat beef, dan jugak games.  Here are the pics:-

- Classmates -

- le juniors -

- And sambut Lantern Day jugak.

Tulis nama & some words,

& lepaskan lantern tu kat langit-

- & your hipster princess, sofia-

Till then, 

Wassalam......

p/ s : Put me in the dirt, let me be with the stars -RIP to my youth, NBHD

Of part-time job and sudden realization of being ungrateful

Assalamulaikum

Hari tu kan, masuk bilik air, tiba2 nangis. I figured out that i have been trying soo hard to prove that im miss independent, but the truth is i am bit lonely. The funny thing is bila dengan orang, i want to be alone. I guess that i want to spend my time with people that deserve it. Sangat diva. 

And aku jugak sedar sem ni aku tak banyak socialize. Tak banyak explore macam sem dulu2. Duduk kosan tengok indie movies. Introvert much, LOL. So tiba2 baru sedar aku ada setahun lagi nak habis belajar kat ITB, and i asked myself, "Dude, kau pernah pergi mana je sem ni ? "

So i decided to pindah kosan next sem, to have better study and social life. I want to explore, again. This time, aku akan cuba lagi supress sifat aku yang kurang negotiate dengan perangai orang ( oh my i dislike people this much ) .  I'll go jalan2 again, eat new food and meet new people. Insha Allah

So kalau nak jalan2 banyak pakai duit kan ? Being 24 y/o, tak kan la nak mintak duit mak abah lagi. Kesian la diorang, biar la diaorang enjoy duit diaorg tu, takkan aku nak mintak sebab aku yang nak enjoy ? What the.....

My bucket list ( Indonesia ) :-

-Yogyakarta

-Lombok

-Bali

Wanted to earn money made me scrolling some blogs pasal orang kerja part time. Annnnnnd whaddaya know, it hit me again. Allah memang selalu akan bagi petunjuk di mana2 bila2 masa. Kan aku selalu complain pasal ITB. Bila aku baca blog pasal susah nya orang carik kerja, aku serious insaf sekejap.

Ada la seorang perempuan ni, dia ada Degree Account kott, tapi kerja pembantu kantin and kerani je. Ada seorang peguam ni, just kerja syarikat bumiputera with RM 1200 with elaun, dekat Shah Alam. Being a shah alam citizen myself, rm 1200 mana cukup bang nak hidup. Sambal sotong pun rm2.50 seketul. Kisah benar daripada bonda yang tercinta.

So, baru cam teringat la dulu2 betapa deseprate nya aku nak degree farmasi ni. And betapa bersungguhnya mak and abah suruh aku belajar tinggi2 ni, because of this kind of thing la. Supaya aku hidup senang nanti, insya Allah, supaya direspect orang, and etc.

Insaf kejap, tak tipu . Baru teringat balik betapa happy nya aku dulu masa dapat offer ITB ni. Rasa cam doa dimakbulkan. Rasa cam ni la jalan yang betul. Rasa cam Allah bagi hadiah direct. Tapi bila belajar susah, aku mengeluh.

Sorry mak abah aya pernah mengeluh. Astaghfirrullahalazim. Ni hadiah sofia. HADIAH. Tolong la appreciate. (^____^) 

So disambung kan cerita, aku pun baca la lagi pasal blog. The only option i have now is Secret Recipe dekat SACC Mall, KFC dekat PKNS complex, or as cikgu ganti kat SKBA sek 6(2). Insya Allah

Bila rasa kekurangan sesuatu,

Tengok orang yang lagi susah.

U have complained too much sofia

Say Alhamdulillah

And live your life

(^____^)

- hari tu ada dinner ngan PM Malysia kita, jib2 and mah.

I dont care i dont call them by their name,

I dont have respect for those who lavishly spent their rakyat money.

Pergi dinner sebab makan free je, hahaha.

Duit GST mak abah aku jugak kan , LOL-

Wassaalam

Institut Teknlogi Bandung, A Not-So-Guide for Malaysian Students...

Assalamulaikum

Post ni sambungan dari sini. About Pharmacy in Institut Teknologi Bandung, for Malaysian student ( i know u googled lyke dizzzz )

Post yang dulu ada mention pasal ITB tak bole buat Clinical kan ? TET!! Dah boleh !! Yeay (untung la junior =( ..... )

Ok junior2 sekalian, sekarang dah ada regulation baru hokay:-

1) International student dibenarkan untuk belajar both Clinical & Industrial Pharmacy and dont worry, both dah diiktiraf Pharmacy Board Malaysia yang banyak songeh tu. BUT, unlike before, NO MORE CREDIT TRANSFER. 

Dulu siapa yang dari diploma farmasi bole credit transfer, means from 4 years cut to 3 years only. Tapi sekarang dah tarak. Ilek ! So korang start dari TPB balik a.k.a first year and believe me, susah giloz. 

2) Clinical Pharmacy dah diiktiraf Pharmacy Board, so korang bole la belajar kat sini 4 tahun and kerja kat Hospital ek.

Institut Teknologi Bandung is the best university for pharmacy in Bandung. Its tough but worth it bcoz belive me degree korang memang laku. Seniors2 semua mahsyuk hookay. Before 30s dah ada farmasi sendiri lyke whatttttt.

So junior bole la apply ek. Sebarang pertanyaan bole anda tanya kat blog or facebook . 

These are da sneak peek about ITB :-

- Dinner yang fancy...la sangat.. ni dinner for junior hokkay...sesi berkenalan -

- Ni sepatut nya mid-exam...tapi lecturer suruh kitaorang pegi hiking..

It was tiring but awesome ! -

- Dufan, Jakarta...You guys boleh explore Indonesia !! -

-De Ranch, Lembang -

- Jadi teletubbies and jadi bintang television...ahahah...

Dok eh...ni Sterile suit for sterile preaparations...

Its so tiring but u guys learn a lot of things....

-Tadaaaa !! Sterile preparations -

- And....meet new awesome people....-

And etc...masa study la yang paling best...

so siapa2 yang dari diploma tu please la sambung study...

Serious korang taknak jadi kuli seumur hidup...

ITB rocks !!

Wassalam

Closer

Assalamulaikum. Trauma dekat study ? Yes, wujud.

Rasa nya lepas berhempas pulas last sem ditemani dengan air mata, jeritan and etc, tu la sebab nya nape aku trauma nak balik Bandung kott.

I think I have problem with " Sometimes what u want is what u cannot get " ...I always think that if u worked hard enough for it, u will get what u want. But world doesnt revolve that way.

And then being lovely as she always is, my sister told me these fascinating words " Kakak2 kat usrah adik kalau diorg dah belajar gila2 tapi still x dapat, diorg stil cakap Alhamdulillah sebab Allah dah bagi at least sikit kat diorg. "

Im closer to my dreams.  Insya Allah

Wassalam

ITB : Industrial or Clinical. Choose

salam

Final dah nak dekat..actually, lagi 3 hari...kat bandung takde study weeks ye tuan2 puan2...masak la korang nk cramp banyak2 =P

Ok, this is a bit story about ITB.

ITB or Institut Teknologi Bandung is the best university in Indonesia. Semua top students , budak2 nombor 1 dalam kelas di Indonesia sahaja yang deterima masuk ke ITB. Memang hebak2 la students sini. Kemasukan international students started tahun apa aku x tahu. International students ni dari Europe, Arab, China, Vietnam , Malaysia etc.

Pharmacy kat ITB ada 2: Clinical Pharmacy and Industrial Pharmacy

Read this very carefully ya, course yang diiktiraf oleh MQA & Pharmacy Board of Malaysia is INDUSTRIAL PHARMACY. Before masuk ITB, aku tau the course i was going to study is industrial, tapi ingat kan industry means machines ( i thought machines ni a bit interesting la kan), so alang2 nak bergelar Pegawai Farmasi, aku pegi ITB dengan hati yang gumbira.

I WAS WRONG. Industrial means MATH, PHYSICS, CHEMISTRY. Sangat2 ditekan kan. SANGAT. Kalau clinical u belajar formulation, eg: choosing the right surfactant, dalam industrial,  u learn in choosing the lowest or highest ZETA potential for emulsion or suspension. ZETA potential is physic thingssssss.

Dalam clinical u maybe belajar the problem of suspension like flocculation, creaming etc, dalam industrial u'll learn about reducing the free surface energy. In clinical u maybe belajar choosing the right viscosity agent, here we learn about choosing the right rheology for each dosage form. Semua nya sangat heavily in physics.

Calculations, numbers, formulas......

Mind you, kalau korang sangat pandai dalam kira2, korang insya Allah boleh survive kat sini. Tapi kalau korang otak biology cam aku, think twice thrice banyak kali before masuk ITB.

Owh ya, i really3 hope my junior baca post ni.Sebab benda ni sangat penting and i bet agents2 kat malaysia takkan bagitau korang benda ni. Hari tu Pharmacy Board datang ITB, and lepas sorang2 kena ambush termasuk aku ( -_____- ) , Pharmacy Board announced that we will be the LAST BATCH that is capable to go for CLINICAL PHARMACY LICENSE. 

Pharmacy pun ada 2 jenis lesen ye kawan2: 1st lesen is for u to go work in hospital as pharmacist a.k.a dispenser yang korang nampak duduk kat kaunter  bagi arahan camne nak makan ubat. 2nd lesen is Industrial lesen di mana korang akan bekerja di kilang2 ubat like Zuellig di Shah Alam ( yes, aku dah pikir kalo susah sangat, pegi je la Zuellig kt Bukit Jelutong tu ). So lepas ni, kalau korang masuk ITB, korang hanya bole apply lesen untuk INDUSTRIAL PHARMACY sahaja. So pikir masak2 before apply !!

Industrial Pharmacists sangat2 masyuk and ada life compare to clinical pharmacy. Tapi industrial pharmacy banyak paper work. Disebabkan Malaysia bukan negara yang pioneer ubat seperti US, korang sebenar nya hanya memantau the medicine making process mengikut rules & patterns establishes a.k.a BOSAN. Korang tak payah nak berangan nak cipta ubat baru. Kirim salam. Tapi lain la kalau korang nak masuk bidang Health, Herbs or Cosmetic Products. Haaa, this is where Industrial sangat beneficial sebab korang bole kaya macam Dr Rozmey =P . Bussiness kan ?

For me, sebenar nya aku prefer clinical pharmacy. The one that handles CDR, TPN, dispensing semua. I love that since diploma lagi. Time practical tu la yang paling aku suka. Tapi disebab kan rezeki dah kt ITB even aku still bole buat lesen in clinical, this made me think twice. Kenapa Allah masuk kan aku at sini sedang kan Dia tahu aku benci dan lemah dalam fizik ? Sekarang aku dah tau.

Sebab He wants me to be better version of myself. That simple. Dia nak aku face my fear and overcome it. Setakat ni aku belum berjaya overcome as mid sem hari tu aku almost fail in physical pharmacy a.k.a the physics in pharmacy . Tapi beza nya aku sekarang aku dah rela and aku dah reda.

Dulu aku sangat marah, tension, depress, benci bila belajar benda2 ni. Tapi sekarang aku ready untuk menerima segala ilmu fizik, statistic, kimia kat sini yang Allah bagi. Aku reda. Mana la tau sofia yang korang tengok sekarang bakal jadi tauke kosmetik or health products pastu kayo cam Sendayu Tinggi ke. Or korang akan nampak aku dispense ubat kat hospital. Either way. Aku rela either Clinical or Industrial.

I am where He wants me exactly to be. All is according to plans. So Alhamdulillah. I have nothing to regret for as He gave everything more than i could ever asked.

-Le classmates-

- Aku yang kena peluk ngan amoi adeline tu -

wassalam

Madness is like gravity..All it takes is a little push

salam

You know i LOVE MOVIES right ? And u know, kalau la berlakon & pegang2 tu tak haram, yes, aku memang teringin nak jadi pelakon =P . 

Because movies/ films drifting u into wonderland. And movies taught us A LOT OF THINGS.

I just watched 'The Dark Knight'. I had watched it like 1000x times like seriously. I LOVE IT DAMN MUCH.

Truth to be told, that movie defines me . Defines me during my first sem in ITB. Where i almost lost my morality, integrity & faith. I wanted 'A' so bad that i considered cheating/  toyol during exam ( but i never did. Dont worry ). It drove me nuts when i studied my brain out & still got 'F' while the rest of them sedap2 tido time malam, juz copy n got 'A'. 

It had been so mentally- tortured during mid-sem. Results semua teruk. And when Final was around the corner, i skipped class. I lost faith in myself. I thought i couldnt do it. Its so damn hard that i cried in my sleep.

Morality, Integrity, Faith. ALMOST GONE

Allah  and parents saved me. Mom & dad made me promised to never ever ever ever cheat during exam no matter how hard it is.

So, apa kaitan nya ngan 'The Dark Knight' ? Ese raso macam maleh lak nak type panjang2. Move your eyeballs to my fav JOKER's quotes please, perhaps u will understand what & why :-

1 ) U have nothing, nothing to threaten me with

2) To them , u are just a freak like me. They need you right know, but when they dont, they'll case you out like a leper.You see, their morals, their codes, its a bad joke. Dropped at the first sign of trouble.They are only as good as the world want them to be. When the chips are down, these civilized people, they  will eat each other.

3) Schemers trying to control their little world. Im trying to show how pathetic their attempts to control things really are. 

4) What u were trying to prove ? That deep down everyone is as ugly as you ? You are alone

5) This is what happens when unstoppable force meets an immovable objects.

6) You truly are incorruptible arent you ? You wont kill me out of some misplaced sense of self-righteousness

7) I took Gothams's white knight and i brought him down to our level. It wasnt hard u know. You see, madness is like gravity. All it takes is a little push

8) Its not about what i want, its about whats FAIR.  You thought we could be a decent man in and indecent time. But you were wrong. The world is cruel, and the only morality in cruel world is chance. Unbiased. Unprejudiced. Fair. 

9) Then why was it me the only who lost everything ? ( Batman replied: -Coz he wanted to prove even someone as good as you could FALL. 

10) U either live as a hero or live long enough to see yourselves become the villain

11) Sometimes people deserve to have their faith rewarded

.................................................................................................................................

WHY SO SERIOUS ? 

Till then

wassalam

PENAT

salam

Juz nak mengadu...susah la sini. Sangat susah. Dulu aku x kuat tidur, sekarang balik kelas je terus 'baaammm', mendarat atas katil dengan selamat nya. X cukup tidur bhai ~ ~

I know3, i've been motivating myself since i got here...

But now, im just too tired....

Tired of everything....

Orang Indonesia ni ada je yang pilih kasih. Then tuduh ktorg jatuh kan CGPA ITB. Tapi diorg yang sengaja torture ktorg camni . I juz know yesterday about the local's pharmaceutical lab. Its soooo unfair. Product emulsion diorg obviously formed FOAM which is FAIL. Tapi diorg pass je. Tapi ktorang lebih 1ml je trus fail. Seriously UNFAIR =(

Penat la camni....balik kelas tidur sampai kul 12. Pastu bangun pukul 12  sambung wat esaimen. Mana ada masa nak study. Midsem aritu dah la banyak aku punya markah nyawa2 ikan. Botany Fail.

Penat la sacrifice untuk orang. I got 2 douche friends here who have never been 'susah'. Means they were born with sliver spoon. So what they do here is whine n whine whine. Tapi sebab salah diorg tu a 'GIRL' which aku tengok dah nak crack & mental breakdown, aku pun selalu la temankn die, comfortkan die, tapi kadang2 letih. Sebab me myself pun emotionally x betul. How can i comfort others ?

Penat la push2 diri nak jadi perfect. Nak jadi bagus in everything. Nak buat baek dekat lab assitant dengan lecturers sedangkan diorg suka la sangat2 torture ktorg. Mana boleh bwat pharmaceutical formulation in 1 hour ....aku bwat time cuti pun at least 3 jam. Ni ada exam & its 1 hour. Its shitly crazy.

Penat nak amek hati semua orang. Penat nak buat2 senyum dekat orang yang meniru dalam exam. Penat jadi BAIK tapi FAIL in exam. Penat jadi RAJIN tapi FAIL jugak.

AKU DAH CRACK

Ni baru 1 sem. Tapi aku cam seriously penatttttttttt.

Penat nak tolong orang. Tapi orang x tolong kte sangat. Penat nak jaga hati sendiri pun. Penat nak buat2 senyum, nak cover2 line. 

Penat pujuk hati ni untuk terima orang. Penat la pujuk badan ni bangun awal2 tiap hari. Penat la before  tidur tak pernah tak terpikir pasal esaimen.

IM JUZ TIRED.

I NEED A REST FROM EVERYTHING

" LIFT ME UP & LET ME GO..."

-miss da gud old days-

SKY IS NOT YOUR LIMIT

salam

Life is different now. IM DIFFERENT. Haha, yes, i changed. A lot. To the point im confusing myself & dont recognize my own thoughts, my own screams, my own anger.

Im getting fierce, sometimes mean, yes a lot of bi**chy, sometimes overtorelant, emo emo emo, sometimes over optimist.

This is all because MY BRAIN IS MATURATING

Hahahahahaha !!! Get it ? Get it ? Get it ? No you dont. So im going to elaborate it more.....

You see, remember when i told u we only use 3% of our brain to live ? So maksudnya aku rasa time diploma farmasi dulu aku guna 0.00000000000000000001 %. Owh yes !!

Dulu ingat belajar Farmasi ni hafal2 je. Slap my arm n call me sally ! Bulls**t ! Hey dulu time buat ubat, formula dari British Pharmacopoiea dah tersedia, kami students hanya perlu weight & buat & dispense. Kini di ITB, tiada lagi MELAYU MALAS. Ini MELAYU RAJIN PUNYA , READ THIS DR.MAHATHIR!!

-MgTrisilicate Suspension-

Owh  so u think u simply can refer to internet ? DO IT, I DARE YOU ! Btw, yang atas ni is the formula yang paling aku PROUD sangat because this is MY FORMULA. 

U see, in order to formulate, kau kena pikir preservatives, buffer, colouring, flavouring, antioxidant, sweetening, anticaplocking, suspending/emulsifying agent, wetting agent. Easy u say ?? Kalo ko nak preservatives, u have to think whether it needs COMBINATION of preservatives or not. Kalo u nak buffer, u have to seek da pKA value in any books n calculate n see whether the pH value suits ur pH physiology of eyes or any cavity. Colouring, u have to see whats da age of patient, kalo berumur die taknak pink2, kena warna kuning. Kalo budak, kena pink. Flavour, hah, my klazmate ada yang taruk ROSE AQUA for above formulation. Mind u friend, rose aqua untuk EXTERNAL sahaja. Kalo sakit perut of course u dont want any banana flavour rite? U want mint ! So u said u can simply use sucrose as sweetening agent ?? Dude, sucrose promotes dental cavity n bad for obese kids. So how to solve it ?? Use glycerol! Or sorbitol ! & U think u can use any emulsifying agent ?? Which method, dry or wet ?? Which form needs to form soap?? Its external ! Internal u only need to prepare PRIMARY EMULSION! 

On the first week of pharmaceutical lab,our lecturer, Bu Lucy who is the WRITER OF PHARMACOPOIEA, punya mengamuk & asked us to go back to Malaysia and even called us STUPID & HOPELESS. Semua tak tau buat formulation.

But then i didnt give up ! I didnt. I challenged myself. I pushed myself to the limit & NO I HAVENT REACHED MY LIMIT YET. My brain is 2 kg, it needs to be filled more than this !

Belum masuk subject laen babe..............how to polymerize the mutant gene ? How to culture virus in monkey's kidney ? Chemical composition of Lavandula Spica ? ( soalan midsem sedangkan ktorg x pernah belajar pun dalam kelas. Yes, diorg suruh ktorg FIKIR )

NO IM NOT BLUFFING yang aku la yang paling pandai & aku la amik course paling susah kat dunia. NO ! 

I wanna tell you this, this is how you can beat the JEWISH, the CHINESE ( non-racist statement. Juz motivation)

CHALLENGE URSELF. SKY IS NOT UR LIMIT. UR DEATH IS ! Bila dah mati nanti, baru berhenti berpikir ! Only rest when it is time to rest !

Rasa dah saturated otak ? Hahahaha, lawak gila! Siyez lawak !

I LOVE ITB sooooooo much =D !!

I remembered time exam kat masterskill, i was thinking " Setakat hafal2 je buat apa. X guna otak pun. Jewish invented formula n here i am memorizing one of them "

Allah Maha Dengar. Amek ! 

- Primary Emulsion of Cod Liver Oil -

- Sugar-free Suspension Formula -

- Check whether the dose prescribed is SAFE or not -

- Calculation of buffer-

- See above, we use the wrong buffer- 

So this is how it feels like,

TO THINK

 TO UTILIZE, TO MAXIMIZE

 YOUR GOD-GIVING BRAIN

I AM A SURVIVOR 

& I MUST SURVIVE THIS 

wassalam

Mahasiswa Farmasi Institut Teknologi Bandung-to-be.

salam

to my junior-to-be, 

if u wanna continue your study in ITB,
(Pharmacy field only )
especially from diploma,
foundation or SPM pun boleh saja, 

& have a lot of questions,

plus doubt,

Feel free to ask me,

coz i know what uncertainty feels like.

Juz message. Friend request tamo3x

This is my FB link

- saya comel lagi bijak

Soalan yang akan dilayan hanya lah tentang ITB

Yang laen, hareemm ~ ~ 

-juz wanna let u guys see what ur going to face in ITB-

- & ni baru TERLAMPAU SIKIT -

papai.

wassalam